Waktu kelas dua sd, ibu guru memperkenalkan seorang murid baru. Perempuan. Kacamata tebal. Rambut ikal diikat ekor kuda. Satu hal yang menyolok, postur tubuhnya besar sekali, lebih besar dan tinggi dari semua anak laki-laki di kelas. Pertama kali dia muncul, seisi kelas menjadi riuh. Hampir semuanya meledek badannya yang extra jumbo. "Besar sekali". "Gajah bengkak". "Jumbo jet". "Awas raksasa". Kata-kata semacam itulah.


Dari barisan tengah, saya perhatikan si murid baru berjalan tergesa-gesa ke bangku yang ditunjuk guru. Mukanya agak nervous. Sebagian karena lingkungan baru. Sebagian lagi mungkin lantaran sambutan yang didapatnya. Baru juga masuk sudah begitu. Berbeda dengan yang lain, saya cuma diam melihat saja. Tidak ikut-ikutan meledek karena dalam hati justru saya jadi kasihan, membayangkan bila ada di posisinya. Poor girl. Selain kasihan, alasan lain saya tidak ikut arus karena orang tua mengajarkan anak-anaknya untuk tidak menjadikan keadaan fisik seseorang sebagai bahan ledekan, sekalipun cuma bercanda.


Sebab bukan kemauan kita lahir dengan kulit hitam legam, ukuran badan tidak biasa, mata juling, ukuran anggota tubuh yang tidak proporsional atau wajah di bawah standar sinetron punjabi. Kalau bisa memilih tentu penampilan semua orang bakal seragam. Semuanya jadi selebritis. Dan saya tentu sedang sibuk melayani fans wanita yang ingin foto bersama, tidur bersama, mandi bersama.. (hush!) *narsis.berat.com*


Sampai sekarang pun saya tetap merasa risih kalau ada yang menjadikan fisik seseorang sebagai gurauan. Pengalaman di kelas dua sd itu selalu teringat kembali. Meski dalam konteks bercanda tapi kita tidak pernah tahu tanggapan yang mendengarnya bagaimana. Dan kita tidak pernah tahu kapan ucapan kita berbalik menyerang kita. Jadi dari pada menambah dosa *yang udah numpuk ini*, seringkali saya memilih diam sajalah. Dibilang enggak asyik? Who cares! Dibilang terlalu serius? Hell with it! Kalau kena getahnya memang situ mau ikut bersihin? Toh untuk hal lain saya masih bisa bercanda. Nabi tidak pernah bergurau dengan fisik seseorang. Saya memang tidak bakal bisa satu surga dengannya *beda kelas bo!* tapi paling tidak mendekatilah.

A few ways to keep your spirit high:
1. Take a holiday
2. Take a holiday
3. Take a holiday
4. Take a holiday
5. Take a holiday
6. Take a holiday
7. Take a holiday
8. Take a holiday
9. Take a holiday
10.Take a holiday

Kalau ditelusuri garis keturunan maka nenek moyang saya adalah pedagang asal Cina yang menikah dengan penduduk asli bumi sriwijaya. Entah yang berasal dari Cina itu pihak laki-laki atau perempuan, yang jelas warga lokal yang dinikahi masih merupakan keturunan ningrat kerajaan. Oleh sebagian keluarga, gelar ningrat ini masih dipakai sampai sekarang. Kebetulan orang tua berpandangan moderat sehingga segala macam gelar kebangsawanan ditanggalkan. Toh dalam kenyatannya, hal semacam itu tidak banyak faedahnya di jaman sekarang.


Sampai ke generasi sekarang, yang masih tersisa dari darah tionghoa nenek moyang cuma warna kulit dan bentuk mata. Bukan cuma sekali kita disangka keturunan penduduk negeri tirai bambu. Kadang-kadang ini memudahkan ketika berbelanja di tempat-tempat mentereng atau kalau kebetulan penjualnya berperawakan mirip tapi di sisi lain menyulitkan kala menawar becak di Y atau sekedar mampir beli buah di pinggir jalan di puncak. Selalu dikasih harga lebih mahal. Diskriminasi ras akan selalu ada di Indonesia ini! Either you deny it or not.


Kayla sendiri bagaimana? Ia gadis campuran Palembang-Makassar. Keduanya darah pelaut, sama-sama keras. Dan memang sudah kelihatan adatnya kalau ada maunya. Harus dipenuhi atau ngamuk. Namun di sisi lain, ia juga gadis manis yang tak segan tersenyum, bahkan saat tidur sekalipun. Sering kalau lagi tidur tiba-tiba matanya terbuka, cengengesan sebentar pada orang di depannya lalu blek, pingsan lagi . Mudahan-mudahan ia menjadi orang yang sesuai dengan makna namanya.

Do you know that there is something which is so powerful that you can't ever resist? You can always leave it behind but wherever you run, somehow you always keep it with you for the entire life. This thing is the one that you can't control.


You don't want it to show up. But it does.
You don't want to remember it. But it is unforgetable.
You want to throw it away. But it is untouchable.


This something can share you smile or tears. It can bring to you joy or pain. But doesn't matter what it take, everytime it comes it will make you starring blank for a second. It never stays much longer than an eye blink, but it trace stays for days. Changing your day or just make you speechless, flying you back or this one has an absolute power to do so. This something is called memory.

"mohon maaf perjalanan anda terganggu karena ada galian bla bla bla..."
"maaf ada pekerjaan bla bla bla..."


oh fuck you. It successfully kept me on the same spot for more than two hours. Now who will pay for that? Sorry my ass. Just "sorry" is not enough you idiot!

Perhaps, the difference between us is: I am a challenge lover. Can't live without it. And I always want more and more. Want to be better. Want to achieve more. Because one thing I know for sure: there is no the best way but there is always a better way. And I never stop searching for that better way.


You might found it is exhausting trying to follow me, seems like a never ending journey. Take my advice: try to always think positive about everyone, everything. You just hurt yourself if you do the odds. And think simple. It surely makes your life easier. Like I said once before, I don't expect you to walk in my shoes but at least you can follow me and not left behind so far. To do that you just have to push yourself a little bit harder. And that's all.

Peraturan kalau Kayla mau tidur:


1. Lampu kamar harus dimatikan, diganti dengan lampu tidur.
2. Baca doa dulu lalu putar musik atau minimal berdendang.
3. Tidak ada yang boleh keluar masuk kamar. Haram hukumnya.
4. Tidak ada barang apapun di depan dia ketika dibaringkan di kasur. Artinya tidak ada yang boleh berbaring di hadapan dia kecuali kalau tidurnya sudah lelap. Guling di depan dia aja ditendang koq sama kakinya yang kecil. Perkecualian buat ayah sebab Kayla hobi megangin muka ayah sebelum bubu.
5. Tidak ada yang boleh mengobrol. Nanti Kayla malah ikut dengerin dan cengengesan.
6. Suasana harus tenang jadi pintu kamar harus ditutup supaya suara-suara yang menggelegar di luar enggak masuk ke dalam.

Do you think changing the foundation of a solid-running-well system is a piece of cake? I don't think so! There are sooooooooooooooooo many things to take into account. Sooooooooooooo many new bugs will come. And sooooooooooooooooooo much effort needed. Now, where the hell is my phoenix wand when I need it? I remember Harry give it to me a long time ago.

For you who want this toy, ok I'll buy for each one of you if the following conditions below had been met:


1. You buy me this first:



2. Or my monthly income is no less than 55 million rupiah (nett) for at least two years.


There, you have your option.

A good system is the one that depend to the system itself, not to a certain person. Not to the admin beyond, not to the developer. As for this, I don't think ours had met that qualification. I'm not expect you to walk in my shoes, it is too hard and almost impossible I know, but at least you can follow me and not left behind so far. It is not for me, not for you but the survival of all of us. Have you ever think about it?


I can simply walk away and ignore it all but I didn't. I choose to stay here and as long as I am here then I am here. If the day had come and I fly away, that would be another story. So are you with me or are you not? If I am one of the Sith lord I would say if you're not with me then you're my enemy *I know someone who will repeat the tag line *, thankfully I'm not. I'm not deal with absolute and still seeing you as a friend of mine. *Jedi rules! Yeah!*


Now can we escape to Y???

mau dunk atu!

i don't mind if hawk buy me this one.... ;)
pliz dear..? muach..muach.. :x

I say good if it is good and vice versa. If you prefer the lie instead of the truth then I believe you won't be ease with me. Take my advice: don't take it personal.


I've just completed Star Wars III *again* and the more I feel sorry for Padme, and the more it convinces me that although space is vast but there's no room for Sith. So long live the Jedi! Yeah!! *I know someone who will shout the opposite * In lately New Republic era, Luke is now an old-wise-most powerful and most respectful Jedi Master. Just like Yoda in the Old Republic era.


There will be major changes in our back bone system, one thing that I try to avoid it at all cost for so long but this time it seems that I can't afford it. Huh, I wonder if this time it's not just me and myself. I'm ready to take the next step. Hope that it'll be ok.

happy 2nd wedding anniversary..

this day, exactly 2 years ago........

ya, seperti kebanyakan wedding stories laennya, full of panic but also joy and happiness. hehe.
detilnya gue sih masih inget, tapi sampe sekarang blom sempat aja ditulis ato diarsipkan.
another faktor males Mode: ON.

yang jelas gak berasa aja hari ini dah 2 taon.
udah ada kayla yang udah berumur setaon. udah jadi parents.
gak kayak beberapa taon sebelumnya yang masih pacaran,
semuanya berasa dunia kita berdua aja.

well, to my beloved hubby...
today, 4 December 2006, is exactly our 2nd wedding anniversary..
thank you for the joy and happiness, also sad and tears, and anything
had happened together with you. thanks 4 being a good companion for all this time.
thanks for being my good adviser, someone to debate with, a brother to rely on,
a lovely and good father to our Kayla, a great lover and gently leader of the family.
i love you so much dear and so does Kayla, i thought...

may our love stories
will live happily ever after..

Hari Sabtu masih lama ya?

@Senin, 04:45 am
*lagimales.com*

I am thinking about a home weekend which means: no mall, no driving, no hang out and just being a lazy like a sleeping beauty. That's it, just being at home, play with my kid, watching tv *Wisata Kuliner hmm..*, make my self a soft ice or a glass of milk. I have four new dvds, it should be fine and I am also thinking that perhaps, order a pizza won't hurt anyone (but my wallet, of course).


There are a couple of things I want to do but I will never get it done if most of my time was spent behind the steer. I do need a time for my self and I want a breeeeaaaak. Can we escape to Y now?

I can smell the water in the air and hear thunder in the sky. Clouds are grey and soon get darker. Wind is strong and soon become stronger. I can't help my self from not painting smile on my face. The blue is spreaded out but in a strange way somehow, it also makes me at ease.


I love rain as well I love star. Far away in the little corner of my heart, there's a spot where I used to sit and gazing both of them, wishing this peace won't leave so soon. Rain never changes, and she remains beautiful as always. Welcome December.

New month resolution:
* Buy my self a good book. It can be a novel, a best seller, a biography and obviously not a teenlit, chicklit or another girl's stuff!
* Buy my self a bodyshop perfume * Heh, I deserve it! I still prefer Juba rather than Oceanus*
* Take a few days off and go to Yogya. *I desperately need a break*

dear rain
where have you been?
miss you so much
and i wonder if you miss me just as much

JK mengatakan kalau bangsa ini besar karena pengusaha. Ucapan sombong nan pongah ini segera ditanggapi dalam acara Republik Mimpi, bahwa tentu saja JK sesumbar demikian karena dia sendiri adalah seorang pengusaha.


Jika Chris Jhonson yang bicara, dia akan bilang bangsa ini besar karena olah raga. Jika mbah Maridjan yang bicara, dia akan bilang bangsa ini besar karena gunungnya (maksudnya: Gunung Merapi, bukan gunung-gunungan... ) Dan jika mak erot yang bicara...

My favorite spot in cafe or restaurant is always the one in the corner. Not the one near the entrance gate but inside. More inside. The deeper the better. It is not because I'm a shy guy but simply because I find it's not comfortable to move your chair (or your shoulder) to give a way to the new arrival guest while you are eating. Further, I can't enjoy the fun.


Reason number two, it gives me a chance to watch the others without being noticed. If someone catches you in the eyes, you can simply look outside, pretending there's something interesting out there. Yeah I enjoy playing the watcher, perhaps I've been watching you too, who knows?


I'm doing it for nothing but training my deduction skill. You may say I read Sherlock Holmes a lot. My conclusion may end up wrong but that's another problem. There's a time when I enjoy being the center of attraction but most of it I prefer to stay behind the scene. Like hollywood movie, I am the mastermind. You may be the actor and get the applause but I take all credit. And that's the most important thing.

If you wish to have steam bath then look for no more. Just get over here to our room and you will soon get sweat. The more your stay the more you get wet. While you take a bath you can surf the internet or playing any game you want and the best part is it's all free. Isn't it amazing? So why don't you come join us and open up your clothes? I would be glad to help *if you are a young-sexy-sensual-passionate-female, of course*


In other words, we have problem with our air conditioning unit and it's pretty damn hot here. So the bottom line is: anywhere but here!

Bush is coming....
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SO WHAT???!! George "War" Bush is just another sick man. Cursed him and his cowboy style. We already had enough typical kind of him. No need to have another one.

The more I listen the more I fall in love with Walking Away by Craig David. Damn, sometimes I wish it could be that easy to leave your problems behind. I have a strange feeling that something is coming. Have no idea what and when. Just a feeling, but I somehow feel that it will be good. *Amin*

Sudah enam tahun ini saya rajin menghadiri undangan dari berbagai vendor, entah itu product launching, gathering atau sekedar promosi. Venue-nya biasanya di hotel, setengah atau satu hari penuh. Dari pengalaman saya bisa mengatakan kalau event Microsoft selalu yang paling jor-joran, setting panggung paling wah, paling banyak pesertanya sekaligus paling ambrul adul dan jumlah makan siang/snack yang disediakan selalu kurang.


Dan saking banyaknya pengunjung, materi yang disampaikan jadi tidak jelas. Mau mendatangi stand-stand partisipan juga malas saking berjubelnya orang-orang. Waktu coffee break atau lunch adalah saat yang paling menyebalkan karena antriannya super panjang dan begitu tiba giliran kita, sebagian hidangan sudah habis.


Personally, saya lebih menyukai event dengan scope yang lebih sempit sehingga audiencenya secara alamiah sudah terseleksi lebih dulu. Enak, bisa duduk nyaman, suasananya lebih tenang, kesempatan bertanya lebih banyak dan tidak perlu sikut-sikutan kala antri makan siang. Lebih banyak ilmu dan trick yang bisa diserap. Intinya perut kenyang,otak pun kenyang. Untuk yang jenis seperti ini saya betah sampai akhir acara, sayang jumlahnya bisa dihitung dengan sebelah tangan.

kayla, dahulu dan sekarang

Happy Birtday My Little Girl...

My little girl, Kayla Nissa Aurelia....

hari ini tepat 1 tahun sudah usiamu..
tak terasa waktu berlalu begitu cepat ya Nak, tak terasa telah setahun ayah bunda
menikmati kehadiranmu di hari-hari ayah dan bunda..


tepat setahun yang lalu Nak, saat itulah kamu lahir ke muka bumi..
setelah melalui proses kontraksi kurang lebih 18 jam, akhirnya kamu pun muncul..
dengan tubuh mungilmu dan wajah yang lucu dan innocent...subhanallah
dan alhamdullillah.. hanya itu yang bunda ucapkan saat berhasil melalui semuanya..
tentunya dengan dukungan dokter dan para susternya yang sangat membantu bunda..
juga ayahmu & nenek yang tak henti-hentinya memberi dukungan di samping bunda...


Ah.. begitu cepatnya semua berlalu, seperti baru kemarin saja..
kini kamu telah lincah bergerak, kesana-kemari & sudah pintar 'ngerjain' ayah bunda..
tangis dan tawamu jadi satu, melengkapi suka dan duka kehidupan ayah bunda
kamu memberi warna yang Insya Allah selalu indah pada kehidupan ayah bunda dan
semoga juga untuk orang-orang di sekitarmu kelak..


Kayla sayang..
cepatlah besar Nak, jadilah orang yang menyejukkan hati bagi yang lain..
jadilah orang yang berguna, indah akhlak dan budi serta tinggi ilmu..
dan jangan lupa tetaplah selalu menjadi orang yang rendah hati di setiap kesempatan
karena setinggi apapun yang kamu capai dalah hidup ini,
tetap ada yang lebih tinggi dan sempurna dari semua itu, ialah Allah SWT


Ah, semua itu cumalah secuil harapan dari ayah bunda Nak..
semuanya tetap berpulang kepadamu, karena adalah kamu yang akan menjalani hari-harimu
kelak insya Allah sampai besar nanti...


Kayla, selamat Ulang Tahun yang Pertama...
semoga panjang umur dan selalu diberi kesehatan dan dilindungi oleh-Nya
kejarlah segala apa yang menjadi cita-citamu Nak..
doa ayah dan bunda akan selalu menyertai langkah-langkahmu. Amin.


8 November 2006, from Ayah & Bunda

I would like to say happy birthday for my lovely kid Kayla and her beautiful aunt Yanti and Novi. You know, you three can perform Scorpio Angels *I prefer that rather than Charlie's*. Bless you all and wish for all good things to you.

There was a power outage last night from around 6:00 pm to 8:45 pm, just about time when we arrived at home which meant: we need to take a bath, there is only limited water supply. We need cold drink, the refrigrator is dead. We need to relax, the air conditioner is dead and the air was pretty hot. Not mentioning the mosquitos. Therefore I would like to say bravo PLN, you fucking bastard. You do know how to serve your customer don't you? As the only electricity provider in this country with over 200 million ++ customers I can't believe your claim that you never gain profit and keep losing resource pretty much. May you burn in hell for your worst service level.

Your IQ score is 120

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

That's what the tickle said just a minute ago. I remember over 18 years ago I took another IQ test and the score exact the same match. I don't believe for this 18 years there's no improvement that I made.

kayla @ sea world, october 2006

This is exactly what had happened when you brought evelen months baby to a big-dark-cold aquarium:



Stopped by at souvenir counter, still fresh and excited.



Right after meal, started to sleepy and not longer after that: zzz..zzz..zzz. Well she simply missed those big sharks and giant ancient fishes.



Back to normal air, warmly sunny day woke her up. Fortunately that infant got no charge at all.

Surga memiliki beberapa pintu, salah satunya diberi nama Ar-Rayyan yang diperuntukkan hanya bagi mereka yang berpuasa dan tidak ada yang dapat melaluinya melainkan mereka yang layak saja. Mudah-mudahan saya termasuk satu dari mereka.

"Oli anda Top 1 juga kan?"
Puah!! Kiss my ass!!
Dunno why but I hate that tag line so much as well as I don't trust that brand.

Yang tercecer dari lebaran

Pertama-tama saya ingin mengucapkan selamat idul fitri semua.


Kedua saya ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada Kentucky Fried Chicken, Es Teler 77, Fiesta Steak, Sate dan Tongseng Solo Pak Min, Indofood dan Wings Food atas produk mie instannya yang brilian, Hoka-hoka Bento, Donar Kebab, tukang bubur ayam yang lewat depan rumah, tukang sate ayam depan Alfamart dan Bakmi Goreng Surabaya atas kontribusi mereka menyediakan asupan pangan selama masa-masa "sulit"


Ketiga saya ingin mengusulkan supaya penemu mesin cuci (pakaian) diberi hadiah Nobel. Saat ini saya berpendapat kalau mesin cuci adalah penemuan terbesar abad ini *hiperbolis mode: on*. Seandainya saja selain mencuci juga bisa menyetrika dan melipat baju jadi saya tinggal masukkan baju kotor, air dan deterjen, tekan satu tombol dan 30 menit kemudian pakaian keluar dalam keadaan wangi, licin dan dilipat rapi *alangkah indahnya hidup ini*, pastilah saya akan mendukungnya menjadi penemuan terbesar sepanjang masa.


Keempat saya baru saja menemukan kalau baju kaos yang sudah melar dan robek sana-sini itu sangat nyaman dan adem dipakai tapi sangat tidak bersahabat dengan setrika. Hal sama berlaku untuk gulai, rendang dan opor yang enak di lidah tapi menjengkelkan ketika dicuci.


Kelima saya ingin tahu kapan dua bedinde saya itu muncul lagi. Menyebalkan sekali, orang-orang seperti itu tidak bisa dipegang kata-katanya. Sebetulnya mengurus rumah masih bisa dikerjakan berdua tapi yang menjaga si kecil selama ortunya ke kantor siapa??

Holiday will start by tomorrow morning but the air is already fully surrounded with it. Blog update will be rarely or even none since I'm not sure I can reach internet during my vacation. Desk had been cleaned, a part of data had been backed up. The rest will follow. So, see you again.

Tomorrow will be our final day before holiday. By tomorrow, I strongly recommend you not to do your work. Okay you may do but make it up to 12:00 pm because during the rest of office hour all you have to do is back up, back up and nothing but back up. Save your work into external media, flash disk or even your Yahoo! mail box, whatever. You never know if you need it when holiday ends, because based on experience every time we return from a long vacation there is always hardware problem.


And last but not least, after doing back up do not continue your work or your back up will be useless. Do anything you want but work. You may sleep, blog walking, gaming, or even browsing adult site . Remember that although the data is important, so is what you have done so far.

Last night we (10++ of us) held a dinner here and it was great. I'm not talking about the food but the party. I can't remember when was the last time we have fun like that, it must have been centuries ago. Last night we shared joke and laugh, food and drink, all together. And I admit, I really miss those old days.

Beberapa catatan kecil

1. Setelah puasa tiga minggu, efek yang paling jelas terlihat adalah semua celana saya entah kenapa menjadi lebih longgar dari biasanya. Aneh


2. Efek lainnya, setiap kali bercemin perut saya kini terlihat lebih proporsional dan tentu saja makin sensual. Tinggal dibuat six-pack dan cocoklah buat jadi model L-Men.


3. Hasil lainnya pengeluaran harian menjadi lebih hemat karena hanya ada pengeluaran untuk pos transportasi. Tapi terkadang jadi boros juga karena kadang pulang mampir beli es buah atau gorengan buat berbuka


4. Terakhir karena jadwal minum susu si kecil tidak berubah, dua kali tiap malam dan harus bangun sahur plus kadang tengah malam menenangkan si kecil jika rewel, saya jadi punya hobi baru: tidur di bis jemputan dan tiap jam istirahat siang. Ngantuk bo!

I hate tax. Hate it so much. If someone asks me where do you come from? My answer will be as simple as "a fucking land where corruption is a lifestyle and you ought to pay tax for nothing". Hell with the nationalism!

Do not know why but I'm getting boring with Extravaganza. Same jokes same tricks rewind. I was hoping they can play smarter but they are not. So I switch to Republik Mimpi (Metro TV). There you are! A bunch of social critics and smart dialogue. That's all I need right now. Bravo Effendi Ghazali.

Sebenarnya saya sudah berangan-angan lebaran tahun ini bakal dihabiskan di Jogja. Enak. Suasana yang tenang, kemana-mana dekat, bisa bangun siang tanpa takut kehabisan waktu buat jalan-jalan. Bisa jajan gado-gado dekat rumah, bakso galeria, pempek Ramai, sate beringhardjo, siomay telkom, steak murah ala mahasiswa di warung-warung pinggir jalan, makan lumpia di jalan malioboro *ada lumpia yang enak di situ, dijajakan di gerobak dan penjualnya cuma menyediakan sebuah bangku kayu ukuran tiga orang, jadi kalo lagi rame ya makannya sambil berdiri* atau sekedar sarapan gudeg di pagi hari.


Yang paling penting, tidak pusing memikirkan lantai yang belum dipel, piring yang belum dicuci dan baju yang belum disetrika lantaran bedinde *pinjam istilahnya, cher* di sana tidak mudik.


Tapi berhubung keluarga dari daerah punya rencana menyerbu Mangga Dua, ya terpaksalah terima nasib *sigh*. Dengan berat hati saya ucapkan selamat tinggal pada tukang gado-gado *sayurnya segar dan bumbu kacangnya mantap euy*, pempek Ramai *No!!!!!!! Kenapa sih di Jakarta tidak ada yang jual pempek yang otentik?*, gudeg manis yang lezat, nasi goreng babat iso *huh! Padahal enak malam-malam jajan di situ, dekat rumah lagi*, toko oleh-oleh yang jual banyak banget cemilan buat stock di rumah, soto ayam yang lewat depan rumah, dan selamat tinggal juga keleluasaan untuk bangun siang, leha-leha dulu baru jalan sampai puas dan ketika pulang, mendapati kalo hari belum juga jam empat sore!


Masalahnya sekarang tidak ada yang bisa dinikmati jika berlebaran di Jakarta kecuali tancap gas sampai 100 km/jam++ sepanjang Sudirman-Thamrin.

I've just found out that our Minister of Defense has his own personal blog. Yeah yeah I know it's kinda late *sigh*. I strongly recommend you to visit the site and make your judgement.


Still related, these two articles were successfully kept me smile in front of my monitor. One is came from Slate and the other one came from WhirledView Both are talk about the press conference held in Hanoi between him and US Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld. Give one credit point to Sudarsono.


I think I'll keep return to his site to know further about his opinion, vision and daily life. How long this site will stay alive due to his work load as minister of defense? We'll never know, just see..

I guess most people still prefer sweet lie instead of bitter truth. How pity they are. Funny how they choose to live in lie. I wish they can open their mind and be objective.

Maximum speed reached this morning: 130 km/jam. Thanks to black Suzuki Carry minivan that prevent me from going further. Notice that I am not a speed lover, daily speed is always around 70-80 km/jam, just doing the Italian tune up this time.


I think I become Korean food lover. I started to love kimchi and bulgogi *of course*, and now I like to try more. Any reference about Korean restaurant that have a friendly price range? Notice that Jakarta Selatan or Tangerang location is preferred.

Yahoo! mail has a new brand fresh design. Outlook layout and look more a like of desktop application instead of web. Impressive. Love it so much. my lovely Yahoo! How can I mail without you?

Beberapa catatan tidak penting:
* Gigi atas Kayla mulai tumbuh. Sudah kelihatan tiga putih mungil. Dasarnya dia juga suka gigitin apa saja termasuk betis bunda
* Dia paling suka dengar lagu Do-Re-Mi yang jadi salah satu soundtrack-nya The Sound of Music. Biasanya diputarkan vcd-nya dan begitu lagunya berhenti, dia langsung ngamuk.
* Setelah diajak oleh ibu ini ke Daeng Tata, beliau juga mengajak ke Ragusa. Nuhun pisaaaan. Emang benar-benar baik deh dan suka mentraktir memberi you will always be my best friend deh *hiperbola.com*
* Untuk caib (calon ibu) ini yang sebentar lagi lahiran, kiranya diberi banyak kemudahan dan bayinya sehat sempurna. Bukan nakut-nakutin tapi proses persalinan itu sakitnya luar biasa dan bisa berlangsung sampai 24 jam *kondisi ekstrim* dan selama itu caib tidak bisa tidur sama sekali, menguras tenaga dan stamina, so exhausting tapi begitu tangis si kecil kedengaran biasanya semua rasa sakit dan capek tadi langsung bubar blas hilang entah kemana. Dan sebaiknya sih menjelang launching day, jangan cuma berdua *apalagi sendiri* saja di rumah. Trust me, repotnya setengah mati.

I don't care Sahrul Gunawan falls to who. I don't care if he falls to Intan's arm *yesterday back, in case* or even Ivan Gunawan or Amingwati. I care nothing at all.


moral of the story:
What makes you think Sahrul is qualify enough to be the subject of Insert Investigasi? An artist with no outstanding achievement, no hits, not a trend setter. What makes you think he does? Stupid crew. Go find a better hotter issue.
ps: this doesn't mean I'm turn into an infotainment lover, just had no idea what to do while waiting for beduk

"Would you prefer the lie or the truth?" Scene took from V for Vendetta. Most people prefer a sweet lie rather than bitter truth. I, my self take the odds.

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run

Yes there are consequences for reveal the truth and not everyone is ready to face it. But to live with a lie is another lie, so still the best way is to accept the truth. Sometimes I wish to solve a problem is as easy as counting one two three. But I can't and I'll never can. Yet I know problems are there to help us grow mature and stronger. However, the process is never be an easy one. Still I wish it can be as simply as walk away from it.

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away


Craig David - Walking Away

I spend almost a day just to fix my XP and Internet Explorer. After it's done, I can't open any Office 2003 application and the microsoft support told that I have to reinstall sp2 for XP. Whoaaa, Gates, I do hope your Vista will be pretty much better!!

Sabtu minggu lalu akhirnya kita menyempatkan diri ke Ragusa es krim. Ya setelah sekian lama mendengar nama besarnya saja dan melihat liputannya di tv *enak amat kerjanya Bondan Winarno*. Sebelum ke sana kita mampir dulu makan Bakso Kumis Blok S di bilangan Jakarta Pusat. Berhubung bukan penggemar bakso, maka bagi saya tidak ada istimewanya bakso di situ selain ukurannya yang sebesar bola tenis, cocok buat pengganti batu untuk memecahkan kaca jendela.


Satu mangkuk cuma berisi dua butir bakso *pelit amat* dengan kuah yang tawar. Sebagaimana pernah diulas, sedap tidaknya kuah bakso tergantung kepandaian kita meraciknya. Jadi dengan bantuan sedikit saus, kecap, sambal, garam, cuka dan rajangan daun bawang barulah bisa dinikmati. Dari situ barulah meluncur ke jalan Veteran.


Kedai es krim yang terkenal itu ternyata tidak seperti bayangan semula. Kecil memanjang ke belakang dengan empat-lima kursi rotan mengelilingi setiap meja bundar. Foto-foto es berukuran besar dipajang di dinding. Mesin pembuat es-nya sendiri diletakkan di dapur, terhalang kaca. Menu yang tersedia tidak banyak ragamnya dan surprise, range harganya ternyata ada di kisaran 6k - 26k, jauh di bawah ekspektasi semula. Hanya ada tiga menu yang dihargai di atas 20k, sisanya paling tinggi 15k. Kalau dekat rumah, bisa jadi bakal sering ke sini.


Spaghetti ice cream pun dipesan, menu yang direkomendasikan. Es krim rasa vanilla berbentuk silinder panjang tebal seperti spaghetti. Disajikan di mangkuk putih dengan porsi yang cukup royal. Di atasnya disiram coklat lalu ditaburi rajangan kacang dan sukade. Suapan pertama langsung terasa bedanya dengan industrial ice cream. Lebih lembut dan tidak semanis mereka. Aura naturalnya langsung terasa. Home made ice cream model begini jauh lebih cepat mencair sehingga kalau tidak cepat-cepat dimakan, bisa-bisa sendoknya diganti sedotan. Perbedaan lainnya dengan industrial ice cream, meski es krim di sini rasa manisnya kalah tapi ternyata melekat di lidah lebih lama sehingga makin banyak suapan yang masuk ke mulut, semakin manis lidah ini rasanya dan semakin kental rasa vanila yang ada. Rekomendasinya memang tidak salah dan tempat ini pun segera masuk dalam daftar "must return".

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

I would like to say congratulations for anie and her prince May you two live happily ever after. Thank you for invited us and anie, welcome to the club!

I got uhuk-uhuk but not hatzing-hatzing that has been last for at least five days. I don't know which one is worse as both of them are so damn annoying. I think I need to take a break. Tell me why there are only two days off for weekend?

Waktu kecil saya tidak pernah menetap lama di suatu tempat. Hidup seperti nomaden dari satu kota ke kota lain sampai akhirnya singgah di sebuah kota kecil bernama Cikampek. Kala itu Cikampek belum seperti sekarang, masih sepi dan jarang penduduknya. Saya tidak ingat apakah waktu itu sudah ada jalan tol atau belum, maklum ketika itu umur baru lima tahun dan masih cute-cutenya *ehm* Yang saya ingat rumah di situ sangat besar dengan halaman yang sangat luas. Kalau kita duduk di teras kita tidak akan mendengar suara mobil-mobil yang lalu lalang di luar sana *lokasi rumah persis di sebelah jalan raya* dan di ujung halaman, dekat pagar tumbuh dua pohon besar yang berfungsi sebagai tabir surya sehingga sebenarnya enak tinggal di situ. Teduh dan tenang.


Tembok belakang rumah berbatasan langsung dengan rel kereta api jalur Jakarta-Bandung. Kalau ada kereta lewat, bukan cuma suara jes-jesnya yang terdengar jelas tapi juga asap dari lokomotif. Di bagian belakang rumah ada sumur tua yang menjadi sumber kebutuhan air bersih. Tidak pakai pompa waktu itu. Halaman depan yang sangat luas menjadikannya tempat bermain yang enak. Bisa main mobil-mobilan tanpa takut menabrak meja atau rak. Duduk-duduk di teras sore hari kita tidak akan diganggu pengemis, peminta sumbangan atau pengamen jalanan. Kalau ada pengamen yang nekat genjrang-genjreng di pagar silahkan saja, toh suaranya tidak akan sampai ke rumah.


Dengan ukuran ideal untuk rumah jaman sekarang apalagi di Jakarta, apakah rumah tersebut ada kekurangannya? Jelas ada dan fatalnya sangat menganggu. Kita dapati kemudian kalau yang menghuni rumah tersebut bukan hanya kita tapi juga ada yang lain dan mereka baru muncul ketika hari gelap. Setiap kali maghrib tiba suasananya menjadi menyeramkan dan aura rumah pun berubah. Tidak lagi ramah dan teduh tapi sebaliknya. Menjelang isya, langit-langit rumah berbunyi gedebak-gedebuk seakan-akan ada sekumpulan orang berlari di situ. Lebih malam lagi, atap rumah berbunyi seperti dilempari batu. Adik yang baru berusia tiga tahun kerap kali ketakutan sambil menunjuk-nunjuk ke pintu atau sudut dinding seolah-olah ada sesuatu. Gangguan yang ada tidak berhenti sampai di situ. Pembantu yang ikut kami pernah didatangi tiga orang, salah satunya kakek-kakek yang meminta kopi, kembang dan entah apa lagi. Belum cukup, pembantu yang malang itu digampar sampai pipinya bengkak dan kepalanya selalu menoleh ke kanan, tidak bisa kembali normal seperti semula.


Kita tidak sampai sebulan tinggal di situ. Melihat anak-anaknya yang selalu ketakutan setiap kali malam tiba, orang tua memutuskan pindah secepatnya. Saya tidak ingat nasib si pembantu malang, namun rasanya kepalanya bisa kembali lagi setelah diobati. Sampai sekarang kalau kita sekeluarga kebetulan lewat Cikampek kita masih suka menengok rumah bersejarah itu, masih ada enggak ya? Terakhir dicheck sih masih ada tapi sudah banyak perubahan. Entah apakah penghuni yang lain itu masih bercokol di situ atau tidak. Yang jelas kalau kali ini bertemu lagi, Insya Allah kita jauh lebih siap.

I never claim that I am the most expert ones, funny that some people think I do and they call me arrogant as the result. For that I can only say "thank you very much, I'm flattering".... I prefer saying that I -by coincidence- know a little bit better than others and that's all. As simple as that. Two my seniors that I knew in former company are pretty much better than me. I have no idea either I am one step ahead right now or I was left behind even further because one thing I know for sure, they never stop learning and always seek for new skill and knowledge. Yes I learned from them. I learn how to think logic and I learn not to be afraid to say "I do not understand" instead of pretending you were fully understand. It is not ashamed to confess that you are totally blank about the subject because it allows the world to help you.


In mailing list that I joined I know there are some people which are the same level or even higher than mine. Sometimes I ask for their advice but I must remind you, if you're not get used to it, you will feel a little bit sense of arrogance in their posting. Perhaps, most of IT champions do the same but it is only the way they speak the truth, just ignore it. They never mean to be such an unpleasent person.


Yeah, just like the term "KISS" that we hold it tight.

Good networking can bring you up, so don't be hesitate to let the world knows what you need or what you have. You will never know when it is time to exchange it for something. So in case you need help in building system or just an advice, I can give you a hand.

I'm thinking about closing this site and move to a new one. This site had gone too much far than I expected and as the result I don't feel as free as I was before. Or I can open two sites but to maintain them is another problem, have no time to maintain more than one blog.


But open a new site means extra time and effort and unfortunately, I am lack of them. To subcont it? Thanks but no thanks. I prefer to do it myself, it's all about taste and satisfaction.

I am not Richie Rich. My hair is not yellow, I have no Cadbury. I'm not wearing red bow tie, I'm not living in a huge luxury mansion and not as wealth as he is. So stop thinking I was him!

This ship is about to sink so everybody, it is highly recommended that you keep your life vest with you and make sure you find another vessel near you. I certainly hope I shall have a better suitable place with me. Don't want to stop here. Not ready yet.

Mendadak dangdut

Mendadak dangdut, eh.. wong kito galo

sejak menikah dengan pria yg masih keturunan wong plembang, rasanya kok dunia gue, entah secara sadar atau tidak, nampaknya dilingkupi dengan orang-orang palembang ya?? satu hal yang menurut gue adalah ciri-ciri dari orang-orang ini adalah berkulit terang (baca: putih) dan (pada sebagian besar orang yg gue temui) mata cenderung agak sipit. kalo kata suami sih, mungkin karena ada pengaruh nenek moyang warga asli sana yg masih keturunan mongol. iya gak sih?? (sedikit ragu). well, gue sih honestly gak pernah mimpi apalagi berencana untuk bersuamikan orang jenis ini, hehe, namun inilah yg terjadi dan begini ceritanya......

setelah masuk keluarga suami, yang asli palembang, sekonyong-konyong (walah, bahasanya dangdut amat!) gue lalu sadar bahwa lingkungan gue atau at least orang-orang yang gue kenal (dekat ataupun cuma di permukaan) ternyata masih termasuk wong kito jugak... well, lets count it then. pak J bos gue wongkito asli namun sempat di bandung. pak M yg seumuran gue wongkito juga, (tapi kok sukanya pulkam ke lampung?) hehe. then, bapak (yang mengaku) cool inijuga asli palembang meski gue kok ragu, habisnya kurang putih dan dari gaya bicaranya lebih mirip betawi? hehe,no offense ya sal. well, masih di lingkungan kantor, lantai lain, Pak M bagian keuangan wongkito juga, malah tetangaan di komplek! pak A sang direktur wongkito juga, mana anak"nya putih banget, cantik.

truss.. syapa lagi ya? owiyah, dokter langganan di komplek sebelah, dokter alamsyah, plembang jugak, malah tambah akrab karna tau satu kampung sama keluarga suami. trus, obgyn gue dulu, dr. Hendy Mochtar di rs. permata hijau wongkito juga rupanya! baru ingat juga, teman kost sebelah kamar asli rantauan palembang. blum lagi pacar temen kost sebelumnya yg masih relative dari TK, suami mantan ibu presiden tea..

oyah, gue ada salon deket komplek, yang punya chinese gitu, ngobrol-ngobrol eh, ternyata masih aslinya ada plembangnya jugakk.. trus iya deh ke dunia cyber, rendjanaasli plembang, trus La Lunesuaminya juga, dazzled yg lagi hamil juga gitu. welcome to the club deh. bisa bikin perkumpulan 'persatuan istri-istri wongkito' hehehe..

belakangan baru sadar, setelah sering ngobrol ngalor ngidul sepanjang perjalanan pulang pergi kantor dengan mobil jemputan, eh, ternyata si mbak aini pun, asli palembang!! what a small world, huh?

mungkin ini sama halnya juga dengan orang makassar. kalo orang palembang punya istilah wong kito galountuk menggambarkan sesama wong plembang di perantauan (correct me if i'm wrong), then makassar juga punya istilah 'paraikatte' yang artinya kurang lebih sama, yaitu "orang kita semua".

well, jadi, maksudnya, moral of the above story is.....
apa yah? ya itu deh kemajemukan Indonesia. elo bisa bertemu dengan orang-orang yang meski satu bangsa, tapi kulturnya bisa sangat jauh jauh berbeda.. iih, kok ga nyambung? yee, judulnya aja mendadak dangdut..maklum dong dude.. hehehe.

up-dated later
biar nyambung ama judulnya. waktu nulis postingan ini, lagu bang, sms siapa ini bang? mendayu-dayu terdengar bergantian dari beberapa penjuru ruangan. rupanya, anak-anak lagi keranjingan dengerin lagu ini. demam sms! sama aja ama para asisten gue di rumah. seperti halnya postingan sama judul punya ibu kireina ini ..hehe..

Kadang kalo sedang ramai berdebat dan tidak juga mendapat titik temu, kita suka minta pendapat ketiga. Dalam hal ini yang jadi sasaran biasanya si kecil. Maklum, biasa ngobrol sambil nemenin dia main. Saking serunya, kadang Kayla jadi berhenti main dan ikut dengerin, biasanya kepalanya suka bergerak ke kiri-kanan, tergantung siapa yang lagi ngomong. Kalo udah buntu, kita melemparkan pertanyaan ke si kecil, "Kalo menurut Kayla gimana?"


Reaksinya satu dari dua: bengong ditanya begitu lalu cengengesan atau sontak menjawab dalam bahasa planet untuk kemudian kembali asyik dengan mainannya. Kelihatannya iseng banget minta pendapat bayi umur sembilan bulan tapi sebenarnya saya ingin melatih dia agar terbiasa memilih dan menyuarakan pendapat, meski itu bertentangan dengan orang lain. Salah satu penyakit orang indonesia, *ya.. ya.. lagi-lagi saya memaki negeri celaka ini. Bukan niatnya begitu tapi fakta bicara koq* tidak bisa memutuskan dan takut bersuara lain.


Saya tidak mau anak cucu saya menderita penyakit yang sama. Kita hari ini adalah hasil pilihan kemarin. Apa jadinya kalo pilihan kita terus-terusan diputuskan oleh orang lain? Takut salah pilih? Hell! Itu namanya resiko. Seandainya terlanjur salah pilih yang penting bagaimana menyiasatinya agar bisa merasa sedikit nyaman. Everything comes with a price. Resiko salah pilih bisa dikurangi dengan memiliki pengetahuan cukup tentang pilihan yang tersedia.


Contoh paling sederhana mengenai susahnya bangsa ini memilih, lihat saja saat jam makan siang. Kalo ada pertanyaan, "Makan apa nih?" Umumnya semua kompak menyuarakan koor, "Terserah!" tapi giliran disodorkan pilihan, tidak ada satupun yang berkenan. Jadi maunya apa? Lagi-lagi jawabnya terserah. Ya sudah, kalo gitu kita makan batu saja.


Tidak salah kalo ada yang bilang hidup itu pilihan. Anda hari ini adalah hasil pilihan anda 5-10 tahun yang lalu. Bill Gates sekarang menjadi salah satu orang terkaya akibat pilihannya untuk drop out dari bangku kuliah dan fokus pada bisnisnya. Abraham Lincoln dikenang sebagai one of the greatest Americans karena memilih memperjuangkan persamaan hak kulit hitam dengan kulit putih dan menghapus perbudakan, sesuatu yang tidak populer saat itu.


Anda bisa memilih jadi sesuatu atau tidak menjadi apa-apa. Bebek selalu bergerombol tapi elang selalu sendirian di langit. Kadang dalam memilih kita dihadapkan pada keadaan sulit, maju dengan resiko akan sendirian seperti elang atau tetap dalam kelompok tapi akhirnya tidak kemana-mana seperti si bebek kwek-kwek. Nevertheless, I choose the eagle. Kalau anda? Terserah saja. Beberapa orang merasa nyaman dengan berada dalam sebuah kelompok, hal alamiah yang tidak bisa dipaksakan.


Terus, kalau Kayla sendiri bagaimana?

My mood still not getting any better. Fuck that idiot bus driver. I really want to smash on his face and if possible, format his brain. This is what you get when you live in a third world country full of uneducated people, the only rule that applies here is there is no rule. And you expecting me to be proud of this fucking-jerk-cursed-barbarian country?? Give me a break!


And let me tell you something:
I don't care about your color. You may white, black, brown, red, blue or pink. It does no matter to me, but I do care about the way you look at those colors.
I don't care about your race or ethnic. You may javanese, chinese, bataknese, marsnese, klingonese, borgnese or a new race that still undiscovered by human kind. It does no matter to me, but I do care about the way you see other races.


And let me add that:
I do care about your attitude.
I do care about your integrity.
I do care about your behaviour.
Because those are small part of the bigger one that pictures you on my eyes, and help me to decide how long I can put my trust on you.

I am in totally bad mood and ready to fight. Thanks to stupid bus driver who took the earlier turn just because he thought he already late. If you value your life, it is highly recommended not to disturb me even a little bit today!!

I lost my devotion to this fucking country since a long time ago. Tell you the truth I do not care about this cursed nation or it would be better if I say I am hopeless that this piece-of-junk country will getting better. All I care is my wife and kids and the whole of my family as well. No more no less.


In my wildest imagination, I was thinking about sending a message to the collective, inform them that there are about 200 milion barbarians here *I can assure you, you are not one of them*, waiting to be assimilated. By that time of course I am already with my Enterprise.

If my info is correct, the blank form has been returned. And it still blank. I believe we are safe, at least for a time being. And I also had been asked to share more of the things that I currently cover. I think it's good as it gives me chance to focus on other, and in turn allows us to improve. I hope the entire team will support otherwise we are doom.

If you sound a horn and the person makes no move, what do you want me to do? Hit him??!!!! I swear, I "love" this fucking country with its fucking uneducated people.

Due to my previous post I make correction. I was so reluctant to go, felt cold and my stomach never stopped scream but I was forced to do so. So there was I, found out the meaning of work-hard-party-hard term. Obviously, it was not typical of the world that I feel comfort living with. Yes I had fun but to continue the night is out of question and thanks God my community felt the same.


Now I am lack of sleep and missing my pillow sooooooo much.

I'm sorry that I can not join this time but under this circumtances, I prefer taking a rest and have my health completely restored. Beside I don't think my stomach is in its best performance to deal with chili and salt. Maybe some other time.

Suatu sore, udara dingin diluar. Hujan turun sangat deras. Kami pergi ke grocery store. Karena hanya akan cari kubis, saya tunggu di mobil, sedangkan pasangan saya masuk ke toko sendirian. Waktu balik lagi ke mobil, kok wajahnya berbeda. Saya tanya:"What’s with the long face?" Dia bilang, baru saja menyaksikan kejadian yang sudah tak pernah terjadi lagi. Waktu antri pembayaran, dia melihat seorang laki laki tua, bajunya kumal dan berhelai helai, mungkin untuk menangkal udara dingin, rambutnya dikepang dua, pakai topi veld yang sudah bolong bolong.


Si kasir mentotal pembeliannya. Pak tua ini lalu sibuk mengambil uang dari saku yang satu ke saku yang lain, berusaha memenuhi harga totalnya, tetapi tanpa hasil. "Kurang." kata kasirnya. Pak tua lalu menyisihkan beberapa items yang mungkin dia anggap agak luxurious, seperti bell pepper, keju, antara lain. "Kurangi yang ini." kata pak tua. "Masih kurang" kata kasirnya. Si pak tua merogoh sakunya makin dalam. Tetap belum cukup. Lagi lagi dia menyisihkan beberapa items untuk dikurangi dari total pembelian. Lagi lagi si kasir bilang: Belum cukup." Kemudian, tanpa disangka, laki laki muda dibelakangnya mengeluarkan uangnya, meloloskan selembar $20.00 an, terus diberikan ke pak tua itu sambil berkata: "Here you go buddy, it’s on me." Si kasir lalu mentotal kembali, terus ada kembalian sekitar sembilan dollaran. Si kasir bilang:"Ini kembalian mau dibalikin?" Si laki laki muda bilang: "Nope! It’s his!"


Suasana jadi amat sunyi. Kentara orang orang yang menyaksikan pada sesak dadanya, banyak mata yang basah. Pasangan saya bilang, dadanya terasa sesak, dan kerongkongannya jadi amat berat. Mata sayapun berkaca kaca waktu dia selesai cerita. Saya tanya, mana sih orang muda itu? Dia menunjukkan ke seseorang yang lagi memuat belanjaannya kemobilnya. Sebuah truk tua yang bannya sudah pada gundul. Umur dia kira kira awal dua puluhan. Dilihat dari keadaan truknya, dan umurnya yang masih muda (sehingga belum banyak waktu untuk mengumpulkan kekayaan), bisa dibilang dianya sendiri tidak kaya. Tapi pasangan saya bilang, anak muda itu kaya banget. Buktinya dia menyebarkan hadiah berharga, sesuatu yang indah yang meninggalkan bekas yang dalam dihati orang orang, bukan saja si pak tua yang ditolongnya, tapi juga orang orang di antrian pembayaran. Lebih lagi, orang orang yang menyaksikan tadi kan punya famili, teman teman, teman sekantor, yang mungkin akan mendengar hal itu juga, seperti saya juga yang hatinya tersentuh dalam dalam. Wondeful gift which keeps giving, kata pasanganku.

taken from here. Sorry, available in Bahasa only.

I wanna see Time, if he really exists. I wanna ask him to give me the ability to speed up the days whenever I feel bored or holding them in my hands on each precious moment that I have.

I wanna see Love, if she really exists. I wanna admonish her for breaking my heart once ago but I also like to thank to her for the gift she gave to me

I wanna see Wisdom, if he really exists. I hope that he would like to share a small piece of his knowledge to help me look at the life with a better point of view

I wanna see Richness, if he really exists. I like to ask for a world of gold and diamond, so that my question won't be "can I buy it?" but "what will I buy next?"

I wanna see Courage, if he really exists. I wanna ask for a bravely heart to defeat the fear, a silver sword and shield to kill the dragon.

I wanna see Passion, if she really exists. I wanna her to teach me more about romantic, touch of passionate, sensitive and the ability to control the game all the time

I wanna see Eternity, if she really exists. I wanna know the secret of being immortal. I wanna make our passion of love lasts forever. flower may die, butterfly may fall but our love should stay young and wild till eternity..

JK said that "Indonesia sudah keluar dari krisis!", this is not the first time he said something funny and stupid. His statement is oftenly absurd and forget reality. I know someone somebody must send this charlie caplin wanna be out of galaxy. I can't see the benefit of having him as our leader as he is not down to earth, can't take critics and live in his own imagination.

Ini postingan iseng dari seseorang yang lagi frustasi mau upload file tapi gagal melulu lantaran websitenya kayak keong mau mati, yah dari pada iseng bengong menatap monitor sambil sesekali melambaikan tangan dan berkata, "halo..", berharap progress bar internet explorer langsung ke pojok kanan tapi kenyataannya betah di pojok kiri dan tidak bergerak sedikit pun juga meski sudah ditunggu setengah jam.


Di dunia kecil tempat saya berada saat ini ada satu mahluk cantik, beberapa mahluk ganteng dan satu mahluk paling ganteng *pletak!*, maksud saya satu mahluk manis, beberapa mahluk ganteng dan satu mahluk buruk rupa yang digilai, diimpikan dan dirindukan wanita sejagat *dziiing! pletak!*, jadi pikir-pikir dari pada iseng melototin mereka terus dikira naksir *oooh tidaaak!* lebih baik iseng-iseng buat postingan tidak bermutu ini.


Sungguh saya tidak mengerti kenapa ada orang yang bisa membuat website yang begitu menyebalkan, memaksa kita menunggu sampai rambut memutih dan janggut memanjang. Iseng amat sih. Untunglah bulu tangan, bulu kaki, bulu dada dan bulu-bulu yang lain tidak ikut-ikut memanjang dan betah pada ukuran segitu, kalau tidak tentu saya repot dan tukang cukur bulu langganan saya bertambah kaya.

Some people are just soooo pretty damn stupid and not kindly a humble ones. Is it so hard to pay a little attention or just say "thank you"? Who the hell they think they are?! I know I should delay their request for a month or two. How I wish they are eliminated as soon as possible.

What else can I say? Nothing lasts forever.

I've instructed my secretary not to accept any incoming call but the registered ones. So if you wish to call my number, make sure you are among the list. The reason I apply this policy is simply because I can't stand against telemarketing.

I had spoke and we both agree that if there are only n-1 of us left, there will be no improvement, no new thing, no research and development and we will keep ourselves busy with regular complain and administrative task which I should say, so boooooooooooooring and absolutely not challenging.


How many times I should say that I need challenge to stay alive? Six years ago we were nothing until we started develop our back bone system. Two years later we became number one among the others. None had such a solid integrated system but us. So they came, they learned, copy-cat and started their own. And now we are all the same.


I say if we want to stay ahead we need all resources we have but I am not the decision maker this time. So yeah...

I never write a name on the beach nor have intention to do so. For if I miss someone I shall simply whisper the name, wishing the heart will hear. And I might ask the stars hoping they can bring me up there, for there I can see you all the time.

Even I think it a thousand times, I still can't figure out a way. At this point, sometimes I wish I can see tomorrow. Or if I can fly to heaven and ask. It is said that inside every body there is a hero. Now I desperately hope I can find it one.

Gara-gara acara di sebuah radio yang ngotot mengatakan srimulat itu lucu, saya jadi sewot sendiri ketika menyetir di tol. Yeah, saya tidak melihat dimana lucunya sebuah komedi yang mengutamakan penampilan aneh personelnya, saya tidak tahu kenapa mesti tertawa ketika seorang pemain mendorong kepala rekannya lalu yang didorong pura-pura terhuyung-huyung sampai jatuh, saya tidak mengerti dimana hebatnya adegan pembantu melangkahi kepala majikan sampai bisa membuat orang terkekeh padahal bagi saya itu sesuatu yang tidak lulus sensor logika. Dalam kehidupan sehari-hari bawahan mana yang berani mengangkangi kepala majikannya kecuali jika sudah kebelet dipecat?


Komedi srimulat bagi saya tidak lebih dari sekumpulan orang berpenampilan aneh yang sedang berlomba berteriak. Alih-alih terbahak-bahak, saya malah berkerut kening dan menutup kuping. Bising! Komedi slapstick bukan selera saya. Jadi maaf saja, saya lebih cocok dengan komedi cerdas ala Warkop DKI *Warkop DKI dalam off air show, bukan film atau sinetron mereka* atau Bagito atau Republik BBM yang sayangnya lagi-lagi dijegal penguasa. Komedi ala kartun-kartun Disney juga lebih pas bagi selera saya, sama halnya dengan Mr. Bean. Bambi buat saya menghibur, begitu juga Ice Age. Beauty and the Beast itu indah, as well as Finding Nemo.


Kalau ada yang mengatakan selera saya terlalu barat, yah terserah karena kenyataannya saya tidak bisa memaksakan diri saya tertawa melihat lelucon model srimulat yang mengandalkan kontak fisik, adu kencang suara dan penampilan yang makin aneh makin baik. Ketika sketsa Extravaganza sudah menjurus ke arah yang sama secepat mungkin saya ganti channel. Lucu itu relatif koq.

Kalau ditanya siapa idola anda? Jawaban saya, dari pada mengidolakan orang lain saya lebih suka orang lain yang mengidolakan saya. Narsis? Terserah bagaimana anda menyebutnya. Maksud sebenarnya dari jawaban saya di atas itu begini: ketika kita mengidolakan orang lain kita cenderung mendewakan dia. Dia tidak pernah salah, selalu benar dan setiap kekeliruannya selalu dapat dibenarkan. Sudah banyak contohnya dari dunia politik, tidak perlu disebutkan di sini. Lebih buruk lagi, tanpa sadar kita akan membentuk diri kita menyerupai dia sedangkan kita sekali-sekali bukanlah dia.


Memang ada orang yang bisa selamat dari kecenderungan di atas tapi jumlahnya saya yakin tetap minoritas. Self-control adalah salah satu hal paling sulit. Sebab itu terhadap pertanyaan di atas, jawaban saya demikian. Atau dalam versi lebih serius: saya tidak mengidolakan siapapun, saya menghormati orang yang memiliki integritas. And that's all.


Soal pertanyaan seperti ini, setelah melihat lagi rekaman video wawancara Nadine di ajang miss universe saya jadi makin yakin kalau dia tidak pantas menyandang gelar putri indonesia. Image PI selama ini adalah wanita yang matang dan smart dan Nadine, sangat jauh dari itu. Dari cara menjawabnya yang penuh engg.. engg.. eh.. eh.. dan diakhiri hehehe (!), kesan yang saya dapat adalah seorang abg bau kencur yang sedang panik menghadapi kamera.


Pertanyaan standar dibalas dengan jawaban standar. Boookk! Dari pada memberi jawaban hafalan ala skrip (itu juga lupa melulu) bisakah dia bermain sedikit lebih cerdas? Tidak ada yang terkesan dengan jawabannya yang mengatakan "mengagumi saya (my admire) adalah mother teresa)". Semua tahu itu sudah dirancang sebelumnya dan jawaban seperti itu sudah ketinggalan 10 tahun.


Jadi maaf saja, saya tidak akan memberi poin saya kepada seorang kandidat yang:
-. mengatakan indonesia adalah sebuah kota
-. mengatakan surabaya tidak lebih tua dari jakarta sedangkan sesuai catatan umur jakarta empat ratusan tahun dan surabaya sekitar tujuh ratusan, dan masih beranggapan dialah yang benar.
Alasan nasionalisme yang sempit seharusnya tidak menghalangi prinsip obyektifitas di atas segalanya.

We lost one of our db server to............. Borg. Ah, shit. I'm gonna kick that damn cyborg. This is the... I do not know how many times they had successfully defeated us but we never give up so easy and as usual in the end, we were able to balance the score.


Yes we were a little panic since this one is one of the most critical machine the Federation has and it must stay online all the time. So we called for help and used all resources we have. The power of networking I must say, very amazing. Though it costs us extra working time and effort but we were successfully rescue all data, and that was the most important thing. Your machine may crash but as long as your data stays intact, you are never defeated.


I would like to thank you to our team. Viva us! And the most important thing perhaps, we learned something. We learned how to deal with this typical error. We knew our weakness point and we know exactly what to do next. I hope what had happened last night can convince the board that the reliability of IT infra structure is something that you can not bargain.

bread cocktail, anyone?

To be honest, at first I do not care about Nadine and Miss Universe but everything changed since rumours about her and her performance in that event spreaded out. Turn your speaker on and listen carefully to the following video, it's her interview. See the way she answered and check out her grammar. Funny, I never know there's a beautiful city called Indonesia. Even Google doesn't know. Stupid Nadine. If she wins, there's must be something wrong with the world. If she wins I would like to say in Indonesian "dukunnya Nadine sakti euy..."


Now before you questioning my nationalism I tell you that I do not care about it. People should be objective, say good if it's good and vice versa. Only by being honest we can make some improvement and in turn, make this fucking country a better place to live. Leave that stupid-narrow-mind-set "right or wrong is my country" because it has brought us nowhere for such a long time!

I must admit that Hero is a pretty damn good movie. Not just because it is beautiful but it also gave me something to think about. Yeah I know this movie was first released four years ago but hei, I do not have time *and money * to watch all movies. It's been a long time since the last movie that touches my heart, shakes my emotion and raises the heroic spirit. Last movie that did it is Lord of The Ring - Return of The King. Most are just gone like the wind. Yeah, easy come easy go.

jalan-jalan..

I have several comments:


#1:
I don't think Superman Returns is worth to be seen in theatre, judged by reviews about this movie that I've read so far. Beside, I don't truly love Superman. He is just too perfect and when someone becomes so perfect, all the fun are gone. Beside, why does he have to wear a red underwear at the outside?? Is it so important to show the world his size?? After all, I still thankful it's not pink.


#2:
The best way to reach Kelapa Gading is by air, especially when you come from the farest point of java island. Trust me! I don't mind to drive there but I do mind the traffic jam. If I brought this baby I wouldn't mind to clear my way by kill em all


#3:
This tiny little project seems turns out to be more complicated than it should. I think after all are settled, I deserve a vacation.

This business is about fashion and quality. Fashion means up to date which is means continous research and development. This also means never stop advertise because you have to make sure people remember you, always. Both mean a very strong financial back up.


Quality means thoughness and durability. People will not come back to you if only in a few months your product gets deisolated or the color goes away by a splash of water. Good quality comes from good material and good material comes with price. So if you can not meet both requirements above, you are finish.

When the goddess of victory has a wish, everyone will follow, doesn't matter how impossible it is. I said that we had gave more than we should. I want to keep our system intact which is mean minimum changes but the fact is it's soooooooooooooooo hard to do so. Wishing Microsoft can unleash the power of excel.

i sit in the corner of my heart
counting the hours and the minutes
of those days where i belonging
wondering how could i get on this far
seeing the traces i left behind


i sit in the corner of my heart
gazing at pictures of yesterday
reading the story that i wrote
touching memories of the years
and repeat the sentences "if only"

*Sigh* I miss my touch.

If you can not be the first then try to be the best.
If you can not be the best then try to be different
If you can not be different then you will be nothing

Because people will not remember ordinary people. Only among the three win a spot in people's memory and therefore gain more chance, but I don't think it can be applied to everything because in skill, I believe being the best is the best way to win.

Tujuh sering dianggap sebagai angka sakti, angka keramat, angka paling kuat setelah sembilan. Kalau sembilan itu komandan angka bertuah, maka tujuh adalah wakilnya. Jadi jangan heran kalau banyak yang memposisikan tujuh sebagai angka istimewa seperti tongkat estafet dari ibu ini. Mohon maaf saya tidak biasa menaruh judul dalam postingan jadi sedikit melenceng dari instruksi awal. Sebenarnya sudah lama saya lihat postingan ibu itu tapi baru terkumpul bahannya sekarang.


Kembali pada angka tujuh, banyak yang memakai angka mirip huruf L terbalik ini. Dulu di dunia kang-ouw pernah malang melintang tujuh pendekar Bu Tong. Dalam cerita orang sering mengancam, "saya kutuk kamu tujuh turunan" dan bukannya "saya kutuk kamu seribu sembilan ratus sembilan puluh sembilan turunan", mungkin karena kepanjangan dan capek ngomongnya. Keajaiban dunia kuno ada tujuh:
1. Colossus of Rhodes — patung Helios yang sangat besar, dibuat sekitar tahun 292–280 SM oleh Chures, sekarang Yunani.
2. Taman Gantung Babilonia — dibuat oleh Nebukadnezar II, sekitar abad ke-8 SM–abad ke-6 SM, sekarang Irak.
3. Mausoleum of Halicarnassus — makam Mausolus, satrap Persia, Caria, dibuat pada tahun 353–351 SM, di kota Halicarnassus, sekarang Bodrum, Turki.
4. Pharos di Alexandria — mercusuar dibangun sekitar tahun 270 SM di pulau Pharos dekat Alexandria pada masa pemerintahan Ptolemeus II oleh arsitek Yunani Sostratus, sekarang Mesir.
5. Piramida Giza — dipakai sebagai makam untuk firaun Mesir Khufu, Khafre, dan Menkaure, sekarang Mesir. Dibangun pada dinasti ke-4 Mesir (sekitar 2575– sekitar 2465 SM)
6. Patung Zeus — berada di Olympia, dipahat oleh pemahat Yunani Fidias, kira-kira 457 SM sekarang Yunani.
7. Kuil Artemis — 550 SM, di Efesus, sekarang Turki.



Serial Harry Potter terdiri atas tujuh buku. Dalam perebutan piala Thomas dan Uber ada tujuh pemain yang bertarung. Hollywood membuat film yang menceritakan tujuh dosa utama manusia. Langit terdiri atas tujuh lapis, dunia bawah juga memiliki tujuh tingkat. Surga terbagi atas tujuh tingkatan begitu pula neraka. Surga memiliki tujuh nama:
1. Darus Salam
2. Jannatu 'adn
3. Jannatul Khuld
4. Darul Muqamah
5. Jannatul Ma'wa
6. Jannatun Na'im
7. Al Muqamul Amin


Ahli akhirat menaiki tujuh tangga sebelum mencapai pintu surga. Komposisi pelangi terdiri atas tujuh warna. Satu minggu terdiri dari tujuh hari. Para imam Coan Cin Pay di serial Sia Tiauw Eng Hiong memiliki barisan tujuh bintang utara yang terkenal tangguh. Munkar dan Nankir mendatangi jenazah setelah pelayat terakhir meninggalkannya sejauh tujuh langkah. Surat Al-Fatihah terdiri atas tujuh ayat. Ada tujuh kurcaci dalam cerita Snow White. Tujuh juga adalah id James Bond.


Sementara mengenai tongkat estafet ini, tujuh lagu yang saat ini sedang jadi favorit saya:
1. missing - Evanescence
2. wherever you will go - The Calling
3. iris - Goo Goo Dolls
4. where'd you go - Fort Minor
5. soul to squezee - Red Hot Chilli Pepper
6. white flag - Dido
7. it's my life - Bon Jovi.


Sebelum ada yang protes, dengan ini saya umumkan kalau tidak ada alasan khusus sehingga tujuh lagu itu yang terpilih menjadi "blog idol" dan keputusan juri tidak dapat diganggu gugat. Tidak ada kecurangan dalam polling sms atau ada tekanan dari kiri-kanan. Sayembara ini juga tidak ditarik pungutan apapun dan pajak hadiah ditanggung Departemen Pajak. Catatan khusus untuk it's my life, saya suka karena menjadi semacam ungkapan yang pas jika ada orang yang mau terlalu ikut campur kehidupan saya. It's my life dude! Hell with you! I ain't gonna live forever anyway.


Sekarang siapa tujuh korban selanjutnya? Ah biarlah berhenti sampai di sini saja.

A friend of mine said that "your blog is for public". I admit that he has a point. Your blog, doesn't matter how you claim "it's mine, I can write anything I want" is a public consumption. People will come and read. They may like or dislike. Your blog builds your image. On the other hand, you can use blog to fool people so they get wrong perception about you. (People will think) you are what you write.


I might also add that Digital Fortress (DF) is not as good as Da Vinci Code (DVC) nor Angels and Demons (AD). I think Brown was started to learn how to write in this his first novel. Characters in DF are not as strong as the ones in DVC and they are just toooooo perfect. I mean, young-beautiful-sexy-innocent-smart lady with handsome-intelligent-smart-sporty guy plus a though-powerful-respectful commander, seems pretty far from earth for me. Speaking about the thriller in the whole story, DVC did better while AD did the best. Honestly, I'm not recommend this book.

I'm falling in love with Missing from Evanescence. Yeah I know it's kinda late but hey, it's my ear after all and my mood! Mine is blue right now so I think mellow-mellow meliauw song will be fit better. So, how blue is your day today?


Keep the spirit high perhaps is one of the hardest thing to do, especially when you know what you are facing of but unfortunately you have no idea when or who or how. You got a little piece of puzzle but the big parts remains in the dark. I would like to ask you if you accidently drop by here *in fact, I know you did it before, several times!* Can you be profesional all the time?


Why does Linux never really beat Microsoft and the giant software grow bigger all the time? Why do people believe Astra International is bigger than Indomobil? Auto2000 is known to be the best for a long time. Can you answer why? Simply because they apply high working standard! High standard ends up in the best output. People feel more comfortable if they know they are with profesional and that means high standard. If you can't live with it I suggest you to stay at home instead.

That is definitely is not a good idea and should be avoided at all cost. But hell, I'm not the eagle this time so okay, the big question now is who's next?

I've just heard news that the C site has been closed. Bang! Bang! Here we have another unemployees in this country. Thanks to our goverment for the magnificient fuel hike and the high cost economy policy. Well I simply do not know what to say. Fucking country with its fucking corruption have lead us nowhere and we are drowning so far. Now I'm desperately seeking for a better place.


Damn, how I'm tired living in Indonesia. Eh execuse me, Indonesia? Where the hell is that? Ah you mean a place full of UNEDUCATED people and rule has no power here? That litte-dirty-dark place sounds familiar to me.

Am I the only one who think one step ahead in this room? Can't anyone follow me? One big problem with your team is when they think "okay, we have reached so far and it's good enough. Let's blogging, chatting, playing some games or just browsing for adult site and enrich your human body knowledge."


While actually there are still so MUCH they must do. The system is running well but not that good. There are still things you can improve. Don't you want to jump to higher level?

Gates has three children *as far as I remember* and each of them will get US$ 10 million when their father passed away. If you think that is a lot number of money, you should be noticed that compares to total Gates's wealth, it is equal to only 0.02% of the whole Gates's money. That's it. 0.02%! Makes me want to scream, "Dad!!!!"


Now we are having communication problem with our away team in bangkok. Hellooo, where's the power of IT when you need it? Luckily there's always alternative. When you lost your money, there are still mastercard and visa, so when you lost your corporate mail, there is still Yahoo! My credit to Yahoo, the best free web mail you can imagine. Forget Hotmail. It's slow. Forget GMail. Unstable, they never let me pass to my account page and always brings me back to login page.

BISA ENGGAK SIH JADI ORANG ITU OBJECTIVE?!

Satu hal konyol yang kerap terjadi pada anggota milis adalah fanatisme yang membabi buta terhadap produk yang dia pakai. Di sebuah milis Ceria, seorang member dengan bangga bercerita kalo setiap pagi kutu kecilnya itu menaklukkan mobil-mobil yang kapasitas mesinnya lebih besar di tol. Oh, how stupid he is. Faktor dominan penentu pemenang kebut-kebutan di tol bukan nilai cc mesin tapi siapa yang lebih berani injak gas dan siapa yang lebih bodoh untuk bergaya ala pemmbalap di jalanan umum. My point is, be objective!

Dikatakan bahwa di akhirat kelak seseorang yang selama di dunia mukanya sering terkena air wudhu *dan shalat tentunya* maka wajahnya menjadi bersih dan bercahaya. Namun sebenarnya di dunia pun wajah mereka sudah bersinar, hanya saja tidak selalu terlihat dan tidak semua orang diijinkan melihatnya. Trust me, I know.

If you:
1. have no eager to learn something new.
2. no willing to do your self-improvement.
3. had been about more over six years in coding but your skill stays the same.
4. less or -even worse- no analytical and problem solving skill.
5. hard to think logic.
6. love blogging instead of your jobs description.
7. prefer funny video, fun program or mp3 maker.
8. reject any improvement suggestion and satisfied with your achievement.
9. can't take order from others only because you feel you both are at the same level.
10. have no intention to dig deeper in user's feedback about your system.
11. do not want to make any improvement that can speed up performance.
12. have no standard in working *even if you have, it's not a good one!*


Then why don't you stay at home and try being a good mother for your kids? I bet you can do better!

Tour de Sumatra

bulan april lalu gw melakukan perjalan dinas kantor ke 3 kota di propinsi sumatera: kota padang (& bukit tinggi), kota jambi dan kota bengkulu. gak langsung berturut-turut sih jalannya, ada kali jeda 1-2 minggu antara satu kota dengan yang lain, but kebetulan semua di bulan yang sama. berhubung gak bawa digicam, yasut poto-poto diambil melalui henpon sajah..

dari ki-ka: rumah kediaman bung karno waktu pengasingan di bengkulu (no 1, 2, 3), peninggalan sepeda tua di rumah BK, rumah ibu fatmawati (bengkulu), rumah Bung Hatta (bukit tinggi). yang dibawah: airport padang (taken 2004), jam gadang dan pasar atas bukit tinggi.

suntuk Mode: ON

- lagi seneng beli seprei
- lagi pengen ngatur ruang tamu
- lagi niat nyetak poto" kayla
- lagi doyan belanja dan makan!!! (status: siaga 1)
- lagi mimpi dapet scholarship di luar
- lagi bujuk suami langganan tv-kabel *kpn nontonnya?*
- lagi error mo hunting buku-buku *kpn bacanya?*
- lagi pengen kencan berdua sajahh.. *devil*
- lagi bosen n suntuk ama most of daily routines gw..

any recomended books?

habis baca thread tentang beberapa recommended books jadi pengen ke gramed neh hunting bacaan baru *gubraks*
sejak kapan gw punya waktu lebih untuk baca buku secara macam kompas dan TV pun udah jarang gue tengokin sejak ada 'mainan baru' di rumah? :lol:

Inspired by nit's story, my mind flies back to a Tuesday evening, November 8, 2005.


When Kayla was born, she was crying. A loud. Including when she was cleaned and wrapped by the midwife. And right after that, she was given to me. Her father. All of sudden she stopped crying, and her tiny little black eyes were gazing at me as of she was busy thinking and recognize me. Is this the man whose voice I hear when I was inside mom's womb? Is this the man who talked to me oftenly and read Al-Fatihah for me? Is this the man from whom I heard assalammu alaikum many many times for this nine months?


For two seconds or more our eyes met and it is the most unforgetable moment for me. Even until now our first sight still remembered clearly in my mind. If only I could visualize it, I would like to watch it again and again. If only I could keep it in a jack-in-box, I would like to play it from times to times.


I gave her to my mother-in-law later and she returned crying. And suddenly every one in that room (there were about ten people or more) congrats me, even they didn't know me before.

I'm tired with meeting and meeting. Can I have just a month without any meeting even a single bit one, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? *desperate face mode: on* Why should I? Cause I'm busy researching something new and I want more flexible time to browse for adult site *ups* and I obviously dislike a meeting without snack and the most important thing, I don't like the topic and I have a feeling that it leaded us nowhere.

lovely KAYLA

what's new with Kayla now:

1. udah jago merayap.. ntar lagi mau merangkak kayaknya secara pantatnya suka dinungging-nunggingin..hihihi
2. seneng banget ngintip orang sholat (gw, ayahnya or her grandma). sambil ketawa-ketawa cengengesan, dia langsung ngerayap cepet dipojokan ranjang ngeliatin orang sholat disampingnya.
3. suka ngoceh-ngoceh gak jelas.. aauuu.. aahh..uuuh.. aduu.. buaa... ayaa..
4. sudah belum digundulin rambutnya (kapan ya? dimana?)
5. seneng banget kalo di kasih kertas. selain masuk ke mulut, bisa dia sobek-sobek..
6. udah mulai tumbuh 2 gigi seri bawahnya.. meski masih imuutt banget..

Here's my comment about:


Mayang Sari: Die bitch! Die! May you burn in hell!!
Soeharto: Forgiveness eh? Justice first then we can talk about forgiveness!
Makassar student: Stupid and idiot as they always be.
Jogja earthquake: Glad to inform you that all of our family there are save and had been beamed up to the Enterprise. Our team there reported that our castle is over all ok and they have everything under control.

kasih bunda, kepada kayla
tak terhingga, sepanjang masa
hanya memberi, tak harap kembali
bagai sang surya, menyinari dunia


I'm very touched by this song. ouch!

Perhaps, the best part of my trip to Makassar is when we paid Tanjung Bunga a visit. And it also be the final chapter of our trip yesterday. Tanjung Bunga is a beach. Unlike Losari, this one has sand and tree and become a favourite place for romantic spot. We had planned to get there since the first day we arrive but there were always something happened in the way that prevent us from being there, either the schedule was so tight or the weather was not a friendly one. But just a day before we depart we push our luck and luckily it was successful.





I love beach. I love sea. Love the sand. And the wave as well. Have no idea why but I find out that beach is pretty more interesting than mountain and a far better place also. So there was I, standing against the sea, looking at the horizon, feeling the wind splashes on my face and the water on my foot. For each part of the wave that run into my finger, there was a little peace with it. If only I had time, I might sit gazing at the ocean at night, doing nothing but trying to listen to the sound of the sea. Yeah I know I must come again.

si meg pergi ke pasar...

minggu kemaren gue ke pasar (baca: tradisional, bukan hypermarket lho..). ceritanya berhubung tanggal tua, jadi maunya banyakan di rumah dan masak aja instead of bela-beli fastfood. biasanya kalo bumbu dapur (baca: bawang putih bersodara) udah menipis, hari minggu gue sempetin skalian beli banyak di pasar buat up date stock. dulu sih nyoba di pasar prapatan, tp kmrn ini beli di warung/kios di kompleks, yang menjual layaknya di pasar, cukup lengkap dan rame pembeli pulak. mayan kan bisa irit 10ribu buat ongkos pp ke pasar aslinya..

berikut ini yang gue dapet dengan duit 50ribu ++ rupiah saja.. (ketak ketik kok sounds that gue makin mirip "Mak Irit" di jelang siang trans tv yak..? huahahaha..)

1. bawang merah 1/2 kg = Rp. 6000
2. bawang putih 1/2 kg = Rp. 8000
3. tomat 1/2 kg = Rp 2500 (mahal bo, dulu sempet 3500 perak sekilonya)
4. cabe merah keriting 1/4 kg = Rp 4000 eh ditawar jadi Rp. 3500 saja
5. brokoli (ga tau brp ons tuh) = Rp. 2500
6. 2 ikat sawi ijo @ Rp. 1000 = Rp. 2000
7. sawi putih = Rp. 2000
8. bumbu dapur (assorted) = Rp. 500
9. bakso sapi dan ikan 10 biji = Rp. 4500
10.tahu = Rp. 2000 (biasanya 1500 saja di pasar beneran)
11.tempe = Rp. 2000
12.bawang bombay 2 biji = Rp 2000 (sama aja kayak di carre4 dunk ah!)
13.pisang ambon = Rp. 1500 (cuma 2 biji say..)
14.garam kasar sebungkus = Rp. 2000
15. ikan bandeng 1 ekor = Rp. 10.500 (mahal yee?)
Total = Rp. 51.500, diskon 500 rupiah aja dari abangnya jadi 51ribu (tanggung amat)...

btw, saking ramenya gue gak sempat nawar semuanya, soalnya keliatannya disana juga harganya pas, kalo ditawar paling turun dikit ato tidak sama sekali. hikz. eniwei, yang sering blanja ke pasar mungkin bisa menilai kemahalan ato gak blanjaan gue..secara gue juga gak tau pasti harga" barang yg gue beli diatas. hehe

isi tasku..

lemparan dari calon ibu satu ini, sori telat nge-responnya say. soalnya telat ngambil fotonya dan belum diedit pulak. but, biar gak lupa gue tulis dulu deh ya.. (gbr dari kiri ke kanan):

1. tas item merek gak jelas. bukan hadiah dari nyokap, tapi lebih tepatnya nyolong punya nyokap. hehe. gue suka bentuknya yang simple dan cukup muat banyak. bahannya agak bagus, tapi sayang bagian handle nya udah agak cacat.. someday mo gue benerin di 'Laba-Laba Cikini' kali ya.. secara kata nyokap harganya agak mahal dan hadiah dari orang pulak. hehe
2. dompet isi duit, ktp, atm cards, kartu berobat gue, kartu berobat kayla, sim A, sim C (udah expired tapina), movie rental cards, name cards, poto", bills, dll, etc, ampe tuh dompet kegemukan kartu!
3. sarung HP + HP Noki 3660 (deuu.. ketinggalan bang-ged yak gue.. hikz)
4. tas kecil isi bedak, lisptik, pinsil alis buat taroh di kantor
5. USB flash disk (it's a must!)
6. dompet kecil buat receh-receh angkot or ojek..
7. karet rambut
8. sisir
9. sedia payung sebelum hujan

Masih sisa dari perjalanan ke Makassar kemarin, sebenarnya habis makan coto kita sempetin cari oleh-oleh sekalian beli titipan minyak tawon dan kain sarung. Enggak mau capek muter-muter kita mampir di toko Ujung di kawasan Somba Opu Shopping Center. Ini sepotong ruas jalan yang kayaknya sengaja diarahkan sebagai tempat jual beli emas dan oleh-oleh. Letaknya sebelah-sebelahan dengan pantai Losari, jadi sebenarnya rute kita kemarin cuma muter-muter di situ-situ juga.


Di situ cukup lengkap, minyak tawon ada, oleh-oleh ada, sarung dan barang kerajinan juga ada. Bingung juga nyari oleh-oleh buat dibawa pulang, lantaran Makassar tidak punya penganan enak yang khusus untuk dibawa seperti Bandung dengan brownies kukus-nya atau Yogya dengan bakpianya. Coto, konro dan nyuk nyang memang enak tapi kalo disantap segera setelah dimasak. Kalo udah nginep semalam dijamin rasanya jauh beda. Akhirnya pilihan jatuh ke markisa juice *yang ternyata di Jakarta cepat sekali habis*, abon sapi, kacang, kacang gula dan jagung marning. Markisa juice-nya memang segar tapi mahal. Satu kemasan dus isi dua botol medium sudah 30k sendiri. Abonnya juga mahal, ukuran 1 kg dihargai 30k juga. Minyak tawon apalagi, terbagi dua jenis merah dan putih, yang merah dijual 35k seukuran botol kecap, yang putih 110k. Berat lagi boo.. Untungnya di toko Ujung harga masih bisa nego, enggak seperti toko sebelahnya yang bikin jutek. Barang sama, kualitas sama tapi harga pembukaan lebih mahal dari di Ujung, enggak boleh kurang lagi











Dari situ kita mampir nyicipin es teler dekat benteng Rotterdam. Mumpung, soalnya belum tentu besok ada waktu. Lagi-lagi es teler di sini beda dengan yang biasa dikenal. Disajikan dalam gelas besar dengan parutan es dan susu kental manis, isinya terdiri dari potongan-potongan pepaya *betul sodara-sodara, pepaya!*, alpukat, cincau, kelapa muda, sari kelapa, dan kacang disco. Yak betul pemirsa, kacang! Seumur-umur baru kali ini makan es teler dengan kacang. Rasanya? Silahkan bayangkan sendiri deh. Kombinasi yang aneh tapi ternyata anehnya lagi, enak juga. Batagornya sendiri not recommended, seperti enggak niat jualan batagor.

















Habis dari situ kita mampir sebentar ke benteng, tapi tidak masuk ke dalam karena buru-buru mau pulang dan langit sudah makin mendung, mana baterei kamera yang sudah dari tadi megap-megap akhirnya tewas sama sekali sehingga sesi foto-foto diambil alih oleh kamera handphone. Kualitasnya tentu saja jauh di bawah camdig. Biarlah toh cuaca juga tidak mendukung. Sebenarnya kalo ada waktu enak juga main ke pulau Kahyangan, toh tinggal menyeberang. Yeah maybe next time.