speaking about complaints, two stories below can complete what the previous story said:
along the way home, in the bus, the are three ABG girls and one guy *it seemed they are collegue students, but the behaviour not represent it well* well, sitting in the crowded-non AC-bus, sure, are not comfortable for everybody. but, the atmosphere become worst since these three girls always talked and laughed so loud.


"hey, what the hell in their mind anyway?
did they think that they're all in their own comfort car that they can talk and laugh as laugh as they can?"
i knew it well, coz everybody in teh bus seems not enjoy the situation. with much much polluted air they've breath and hectic surrounding like that, i believe their ways try to make any attention, sure not work.


not so different with the above ones, yesterday was just the same. this time, two men, behind my seat, with their original style from kampung, with no guilty feeling just smoked as they want. smoking in the crowded-not much fresh air-bus? oh well, it's not kind of warteg or any place where you can do your bad habit. what indonesian people!

i agree with this gentleman about how some stupid ABG -pre teens, can be very annoying by doing some stupid fucking things like wRiTe LiKe tHis. * shit! my eyes are now like roller coaster! where's the earth anyway?*
and they think it is cool? *oh please somebody kick their azz! please.. please.. please..*
or there are some idiot who posted a long long long unparagraph posting. *damn! my eyes! you sannabitch, didn't your mama tell you to go to school? *


i almost missed the bus this morning. huh! always doing it in the last minute while i still need to check some stuff. habit, habit. don't they learn that i hate that kind of habit? i'm a man with a plan and always do something with a plan and i hate when a plan doesn't come together. and i used to include every possibility, every thing might happen into account.


so when i'm talking about the worst, that doesn't mean i become defeatism or have no enthusiasm. i'm just preparing the plan B. that's all.

i remember when i saw the battle scene in return of the king, i was wondering to myself: is this what's gonna be happened when we fight Dajjal and his army years later? at least it's not gonna be far from it. but who cares anyway, even many moslems still do not know this creature and what he's gonna do.

my beauty advisor suggests me to clean my face every night before bed so i went to the shop and returned with a bottle of Ovale maskulin and a pack of cempaka kapas kecantikan *cherry jangan ketawa*


i still got hatchiim hatchiim and sroot srooot . wish it's not gonna be worse.

what things to celebrate the postpone love anniversary??
- lunch at a resto but ended with fight n much complaints from him *again*
- surving whatever @ festival rasuna and collected many gratisan *mbak cherr.. kok ga ada ya kmr*
- eating mie ayam for dinner *some people said that noodle can make the relation will be lasting longer forever*
- jam 8 malem beduaan di kamar kost gue soalna mo nonton AFI
- and last but not least: one sweet kisses, of course

i don't celebrate valentine for three reasons: 1st it's not my style. 2nd it's not my style. 3rd it's not my style.
it doesn't mean that i'm "non US minded", just can't find enough acceptable reason to celebrate it. beside i feel it's sooo ABG class *puh! cuih! cuih!*, a group of trend follower people who know nothing but having fun and spend parent's money.


i also don't like the idea of being tighten to express the way we feel to once in a year. for those who say it's the moment we want to catch then i say what kind of stupid are you if you wait till 14th Feb just to tell the person you love how much your love is? let me tell ya what the perfect moment is:
it is when the person you love is down and needs a hug
it is when in the deepest night he/she feels lonely and you contact him/her
it is when you two just escaped from a big big problem in this life that makes you two hard to sleep for a moment and lost your weight.


more important question: what do we celebrate from this day called valentine? we never know either the story behind it is true or not and i don't care about this st. valentine. perhaps the romance is touching (again, if it's true) but that's all. it's only a love story from a man and a woman that ended up in tears. it is us who exposs it and god it.


there's an old story about a man who stopped at a flower shop to order some flowers to be wired to his mother who lived two hundred miles away. As he left the shop he noticed a young girl sitting on the curb sobbing. the kid wanted to buy a rose for her mother, unfortunately she had no enough money.
the man bought her a rose and also drove her to her mama. the little girl directed him to cemetry and placed the rose on a freshly dug grave.
The man returned to the flower shop, cancelled the wire order,picked up a bouquet and drove the two hundred miles to his mother's house.


now that is love.


one more thing. i don't believe a candy chocolate can represent my feeling. and i choose to show the love i have any time, any where i like. perhaps a stealing kiss on forehead in the middle of hilarity.

Midnight. Not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her mem'ry. She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan.


Mem'ry. All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days, I was beatiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the mem'ry live again.


Evr'y street lamp seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters and soon it will be morning.


Daylight I must wait for the sunrise, I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin.


Burnt out ends of smoky days the stale cold smell of morning.
The street lamp dies another night is over,
another day is dawning.


Touch me. It's so easy to leave me
All alone with my mem'ry of my days in the sun.
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is.
Look a new day has begun.


memory - chy'i

LOVING YOU


i'm not loving you with all my heart only
but I love you with my entire life


in every breath I take I think of you
in every night I sleep I dream of you
in every pray I make there's your name


when you gave me joy I was smiling
when you gave me pain I kept smiling
coz for you I hide my tears


you may know but didn't notice
coz you're too blind to see
or too deaf to hear


if I have power like Sulaiman
i will ask a bulbul to wake you up every morning
to make sure you won't miss the sun


or i ask the constellation
to stay with you at night
to tell you that i'm with you


though you let me down
or even you wasted me
i keep loving you
for a reason that I don't understand myself


but if someday you hear nothing about me
that would be the day when I stop loving you
coz Izrail has came down to see me
and I know that I have to go


*bulbul = burung kecil bersuara indah
*Izrail = malaikat pencabut nyawa


one sweet poem author by hawk i loved much
first time posted @ KG: 29.04.2002

sometimes i wish i can jump back into my warmly bed after do the morning prayer. especially when it is , and when i open my eyes later, it's already 10 am. and so i take the newspaper and have two packs of fried noodles for breakfast. after that i surely jump into my pc and be a maniac game till noon. about 2 pm, i take a bath, having lunch and............... return to the bed again


heh wake up now hawk and go back to work . ouch!

and now this person become a center of attention of all people in Indonesia.
all people here in my room just do the same. watching along that live-tv-show. who knows what the original final decision for him actually?

venus loves drama. mars loves horror (one-two-three freddy's coming to you...)
venus loves comedy. mars loves sci-fi (engange! long live the jedi!)
venus loves romance. mars loves thriller (ripley....! it's the alien queen....)
and soooooo it's hard to decide which movie to watch.


i like to say also that we only maintain data and software integrity. data entry absolutely not ours. so stop bugging us and start using your brain. if for some reason you can't then i suggest you to donate it.


btw, any of you kindly enough to share me about 300 million rupiah? i'll make sure that your name will stay till the end of time.

this is a confirmation message:



and this is an error message:



the point is, put a border line between the two above. not all of incoming message means error. read the news carefully and understand the meaning of it. don't act like some stupid that i know.

execuse me,
i think i left my heart with you
will you take care of it please?

1st anniversary

for your love and caring dear..
thank you for giving all i need
being a good companion all the times
being a good friend to fight and talk with
being a good listener to all the pain and joy
being the naughty one sometimes i miss a lot
thank you for being just the way you are


for my lovely and the only one bulbul
thanks for this amazing one year together with you

batik day

di tempat kerja, tiap jumat ada yang namanya batik day. hari ini tiap staff mulai dari bawah ampe kelas direktur dianjurkan untuk memakai batik. eh sebenarnya bukan pakaian batik aja sih, tapi pakaian nasional. jadi misalnya yg mo pake kain tenun dari flores ato kain kalimantan ato yang lain-lain boleh-boleh aja. tapi yah most sih.. pada pake batik tuh. hal ini udah berlangsung kira-kira sejak 5 bulanan yang lalu. emang sih baru sebatas anjuran, belum kewajiban, jadi ya masih ada di sana-sini yang make baju kerja biasa.


so, kalo hari jumat itu, kantor rasanya penuh dengan orang-orang yang seperti mo ke kondangan. hehe. sebagian malah bilang gini: "wah, kalo tiap jumat pake batik, abis deh baju gue buat ke kondangan" yah, harusnya pinter"nya milih pakaian aja yah. kalo gak mau kelihatan terlalu resmi, khan banyak tuh batik-batik yang agak trendi dan gaul macam keluaran batik keris ato yang murah-murah juga banyak dijual. untungnya, pas ke jogja kemarin, disempetin mampir di Beringhardjo dan beli batik yang lumayan berkesan casual. harganya juga gak mahal-mahal amat. jadi hari ini dipakelah batik itu, warna orange, rada ngejreng dikit sih, tapi modelnya lumayan ngepas badan n keliatan santai, siap buat dipake 'jalan'