HAPPY NEW YEAR 2004!!
wish you all the best during the next great year!






hope that i'm not just alone
along to welcome the new year changing...

i really wish can spend the end of this year with him..
and welcome the great new year with new hoping and dreaming..
just with him.. only with him..

the guys set up a surprise party here. i found a chocolate b'day cake as i return from mushalla. thx all gank.

for my lovely dear, kakak, bulbul...
wish you a happy happy happy and belated birthday, dear!
hope in this your lovely day, all things in your dreams and goals in life will be come true. hope Allah SWT always be there with you and help you in achieving everything in this life.





from you lovely adek
thank you for always be there whenever i need you...

what is the good thing of being a capricorn? they said about loyal, cool, charm, confident -sometimes overconfident-, diligent, cocky, high taste, stubborn, and more and more and more... but let the people do the judge. i only do whatever i wanna do and i should do. if it brings a better life for people around me then alhamdulillah. i just wanna make my dreams come true. success is a bonus.

some idiots think that repairing an old junk broken PC is like cooking martabak. i almost say to them that if they wanna it completed fast then why don't they come here and start working on it by themselves. it's not easy to fix a PC with a broken floppy disk device, not connected to LAN and with a slow read-write HDD. there is procedure dude, and we should start it from the easiest method. the far we go the longer time it takes. oh fuck them with their stupid mind.


no i don't mean to be rude or cocky. just well, if only they know that it's not that easy if the machine didn't run smooth as we expected.

the big issue has become major among the three sites. doh, i hope i'm not going to the E site. it's a junk yard after all. club of retired will-be-fired-soon people. i do excited hearing the expand strategy. sounds interesting and i do hope i'll have a chance to lead a small powerful team to success. start it from scratch and end up in a victorious glory.


meanwhile, let's get naked...

gita cinta dari sma

salah satu film remaja tahun 80-an Indonesia. masih ingat gak?
duh, entah kenapa suka banget ama film-film remaja kayak gini. apalagi yang satu ini. nah, kemaren hari minggu itu sampe bete juga nungguin versi serial TV-nya di sini. ampe dibela-belain soanya suka banget ama ceritanya. yah meski ada improvisasi di sana-sini dari versi aslinya.



tapi bukan cuman itu alasannya. tapi salah satunya karna setting mengambil lokasi di JOGJA, dan satu lagi: sekolah tercinta ini. haha, jelas mantan sekolahku dulu ini yang menarik hati untuk mengikuti terus jalan ceritanya. duh.. jadi ingat masa-masa sma dulu di sekolah itu. setting kelasnya aja percis yang aku pake dulu pas kelas 2 fisika disana. masih ingat masa-mas apas naksir kakak kelas yang pinter, jago basket, motret, main musik and cakepnya minta ampun itu.. *kalo sekarang mm.. mirip" keanu reeves gitu kali yee tampangnya* hihihihi. duuh.. jadi pen lagi kembali ke masa-masa indah itu....

i think Majelis Ulama Indonesia should declare a new statement: "Pajak hukumnya HARAM!!" instead of "bunga bank haram"
that obviously sounds better.

hai, bloggers! long time no see!
yup, setelah melewati hari-hari melelahkan seminggu terakhir kemarin, akhirnya skarang udah punya sedikit waktu luang buang ngisi blog. well, as i told before, kegiatan banyak banget sejak hari minggu tgl 14 kemaren. mulai dari nyokap n sister yg mampir ke jakarta, disambung dengan acara kantor selama 2 hari di HI. trus baru masuk kantor hari jumat, dan itupun langsung disambung acara kantor jalan-jalan ke Tajur dan Cibubur. fuhh.. benar-benar melelahkan. hari senin kemarin langsung ngerjain tugas yang kenan deadline hari itu juga. buset! ampe bos ditelpun karna belum ngumpulin laporan! hia hia hia. uhhm.. sebenarnya byk yang pen diomongin. but well.. let c later, hope i have some spare time to write down here.

it's been raining for the last two days and now it's still raining out there though somehow it brings the blue mellow atmosphere but it also makes me feel at ease at the same time. sometimes i wish i can catch this feeling and save it into a wooden box so that everyone that hear my story will truly understand the beauty and emotion that i experienced.


for some people rain is nothing but falling water from the sky. poor them. i bet they can't see the beauty of the star too.

the C site will be closed any moment. the two will be merged and more will be fired. it is sad to know that the guy over there already lost their work of spirit. the big scenario has been started and i don't think we all see the light in the end of the tunnel. i just hope that i can escape this time.

most people think that we can handle everything, that we know everything. that we can solve everything. they mess up and then come to us in hoping that we'll clean up everything. well sorry to disappointed you but i'm just a human after all. and we are for sure have no intention to take over someone's else job.


someone somebody must teach them the word of "responsibility"

people think that it is their need which have to be fulfilled first. it is their request that must be completed first. it is they who is important. i say to them that there is priority stupid. resources are limited so priority level is applied. if things have the same level then first in first out.


and try using the helicopter view method. good people are people with vision and can see the whole problem better. open your mind and remove that stupid idiot narrow thinking out of your piece of junk brain. there you'll be able to raise your level one step up. but if somehow you can't, may i suggest you to climb up monas and jump? there is enough idiot in this world already.

how much your love is?
i'm sorry i have no idea coz it's simply something that i can't count. perhaps it'll be easier if you ask me to tell you how many star in the sky are there.


and what is your love look like?
sometimes it's like the ocean. wide and deep. sometimes it's like the snow. cold and white and can easily melt on your lips. defeated by your warm kiss. sometimes it's like the volcano, hot dancing and firing up your passion. makes you sweat and scream. sometimes it's like the wind, slow but can turn wild. spining you around and flying you above. it's when you are walking in the autumn with the falling leaves surrounding you.

a busy days. received many calls for confirmation. send some invitation. copy many documents. bla.. bla.. bla.. fuhh.. and it will lasting till the next thursday. oh God.. my tiredness haven't ended yet. it just too soon to say that it will be over. counting there will be THREE busiest days from now. fortunately, still can spend some hours with mum and sis during their holiday here.

beautiful sunday

what a great weekend! mum and my litle sister stopping by in jakarta during the way back home to jogja. really great, alhamdullilah. when 2 families met together, share and talk each other. good, at least for a start. then just hoping all the things will be come true

great weekend. alhamdulillah. i spend last night in my aunt's house. not bad ac room with shower and tv. but i'm lack of sleep and can't avoid feeling sleepy right now. huh i wish i can jump onto 16:30. hope the thing that has gone will return soon so that i can have my normal life back.


i'm writing this with the sun shines through the window behind me, makes me hard to get a clear vision to the screen. silau maaaan!

this is the top 10 of the most important word in this world:
1. money
2. money
3. money
4. money
5. money
6. money
7. money
8. money
9. money
10.money


i need money. i want money. i miss money. give me money. bring me money. help me money. save me money. oh money. yeah money. more money.


"my name is bond, money bond". "money, we have problem". "my name is aragorn, the son of aratorn and if by money or money i can save you, i will". "walt disney picture presents an adventure movie below the sea: Finding Money". "bruce almoney". "there is no try. there is money or money not". "to money or not to money, that's the question". "it's a bird, it's a plane, it's a... money!". "to bold they go where no money has gone before".

in case i meet the little green man and he asks me what is indonesian then my answer would be: oh, it's a third world country where corruption is legal and if you're clean, you'll get nothing.


and how about the people?
well, they are undicipline, love disorder so much and hate rules. they do create one but usually they keep break it again and again. rule is there to be broken not to be obeyed. sounds funny? you might interest if you know they are also love to blame each other instead of sitting together and find the solution. most of them are lame, low educated or even worse. they hate clean and tidy. they do know the word of "antri" but never understand or even try to understand the meaning.


they have power, called "aji mumpung". ie: "mumpung masih bisa --> blok M! blok M! kosong! kosong!", "mumpung mo lebaran naikin harga 3x lipat. maksa dikasih THR. setahun sekali ini.." they don't care about the others, don't think about other people need and satisfaction. they are very ego-sentris and self-thinking.


oh my! and the local authority?
hmm.. they are outstanding in gaining money. they love creating bombastic project ie "operasi esok penuh harapan", "gerakan disiplin nasional" or "gerakan aku cinta rupiah" and they also love to leave it in the middle. indo people are excellent in talking but not doing. they love to boast, glamour and to show off. our local authority is also excellent for forgeting their people except near public election. they don't care about anything as long as they gain benefit. for certain rewards they even ready to testify never know you before.


how terrible. how come you choose them for your leader anyway?
money talks. like i said before, too many dumbs here. too many people who don't have conscience. they have power but very self esteem and a miss rupiah die hard fans. and i give them nothing but a piece of shit.


but you are indonesian, aren't you? not sounds so nasionalist.
uh, i wish i wasn't. i'm just trying to be objective not a stupid-idiot-person who holding tight till die the right or wrong is my country philosophy. i say go to hell for them. curse them with their narrow thinking. and right now this fucking country doesn't deserve any respect of mine even a little bit.


oh well, let me tell ya. i'm from mars and we're planning to destory a country once a year. indo is our next target and the count down should start any minute but regard to what you've told, i think we better cancel the plan. your country is drowning and will sink if your people don't change. i believe it will destory itself someday.
hei, do you have an IT job opportunity on mars?

mhh.. sometime i just can't stand to stay in work environment like this..

the matrix is already gone. huh . bring neo back to me, you stupid theatre. yet it still can be found on PIM or Megaria but those places are not in the fave list. there are alternative however, Below or Under World. epel i'm in love? yaik. i better stay outside and jump in the sega race seat.

konferensi meja panjang

ini nih hasil gath halal bi halal hari sabtu kemaren ama anak-anak ini. lumayan rame. seruuu. abis kelar boling di PIN langsung lanjut maem di Pizza Hut, Pondok Indah Plaza. kenyang.. kenyang.. kenyang.. mana bawa pulang 1 piece lagi. anyway, gue di poto kok gak ada yang suksez yahh?? tampak belakang mulu.. hikss..







updated 11.12.03 @8.18 am
see.. the other pictures of me and my friends..
huhuhu.. tampak jauh mulu. gak kliatan euy... hehehe...

so many things here in my head must to tell but it doesn't come out when i'm ready in front of pc. uuh..

"i love you"
" i know"


*The Empire Strikes Back and Return of the Jedi*

our new baby really rocks it out but she also gave me a heavy bad headache in return, so bad that i couldn't even stand. sorry for didn't inform any update. but the result is outstanding. perfomance is much better and speed is increasing. viva us!



and deleen returns to B5 by the time when the earthforce forces sheridan to take prisoner. luckily that she brings a white star and two minbari sharlin war cruisers with her.
"this is ambassador delenn from minbari. babylon 5 is under our protection. withdraw or be destroyed"





not afraid to female lion's roar, the enemy replies.
"negative. we have the authority here. do not force us to firing your ship"







deleen stands up. walks a step ahead and speaks in a deep, cold voice.
"one man, only one single man survive the minbari fleet. he is behind of me. you are in front of me."
she stops for a moment before continue with a threat in her sound
"if you value your life, be somewhere else"
the eney withdraw.



if you ask me why do i quote that scene well, it would be a good example of how a lady defends her man. she still stays on his side even after her husband died. their love is strong. so strong that even time can't eliminate it.

fasten your seat belt ladies and gentlemen coz we're going into the hyper threading space. make sure you are plugged well and don't forget to pray. we never know what the hell is waiting us on the other side. one more thing, if somehow you get sick due to the jump, please don't kill your fellow neighbor, at least not here. i like to keep my ship clean and tidy.

if the dark night could see
how the heart trembled in pain
a nightmare as companion
instead of a guardian angel
singing beside...

let's see. we have keripik tempe mendoan, paru goreng, kue semprong, dodol sirsak and kaoya kacang ijo. in addition we also have a pempek invitation. now i can see the positive impact of mudik

iseng-iseng maen ke sini. dan ini hasilnya:


Meg, your savings style is right On the Money
With your rational savings sense, you're leading the pack. You know that even the simplest strategies for saving can reap great rewards. You probably want to get the most bang for your buck — not just to protect your future, but also to live a good life now, too.


But everybody knows you have to make some big purchases every now and again. So when you're facing those major life spends, you're probably wise enough to budget for them without touching the money you've set aside in savings. Having a good grasp of the investment ropes is half the battle when it comes to laying the groundwork for a sunny financial future. To your credit, you likely also couple that with good old common sense. With more than a million and a half Americans in debt these days, your savings style is something to applaud — and something for others to strive toward. So, keep up the good work!

my uncle said this once: "klo bajaj mo belok, kapan dan kemana dia belok itu cuma dia dan Tuhan yang tahu"


my aunt's car was hit by a red bobrok bajaj. unfortunately that threecycles vehicle quickly ran away after the attack. luckily my aunt's driver didn't give up and chased that stupid jerk.


when they finally met, one thing that made my aunt's driver losing his temper was the bajaj man put one of his ankle on his vehicle door and asked a complete idiocy question cocky, "ada apa pak?"
plak-plak-plak-plak. in a second a series of row of my aunt's driver slap landed on his face followed by an angry voice, "ada apa ada apa. lu liat gak tadi nyerempet gue?!"
"maklum pak, namanya juga orang kecil," the bajaj man replied sob while holding his swelling cheek.
"iya gue juga orang kecil. emangnya itu mobil gue apa?! tapi bukan berarti kita lantas boleh semau kita di jalan!"


yes i hate those uneducated people for not thinking about the others. with their primitive brain, not much we can hope especially when they think that gives them right to do whatever they wanna do.

hello people, it's good to see you again and welcome back to our routine days.


first of all, i like to say that i only have seven days a week. five for this, one for this and one for me myself. i can't give more than i have, at least not now. dunno some other day. and yes i feel the same way, yet i think i can handle it better. patience, as i get used to be with.


and may i have your attention please, i would like you all to welcome the rain carrier, the most romantic and sweetest month of the year *well, at least for me*, it is where the desire is and when the dying leaves turns into snowflakes and if you live in a four seasons country, you'll see white covers the entire city.


and if you are standing alone in the square with the snow all around, you may hear the golden bell is ticking tick-tock-tick-tock ding-dong-ding-dong from somewhere so far away through the end of time. it is the month where we will close a chapter of our book of life before start a new one.


the final chapter has been started and before we realize the end has come and another year will pass. how many things have been delayed? i may sit in the window of time and start looking back, seeing the traces i left behind. with so much tears and love, the struggle continues.


ladies and gentlemen, please welcome December.

Happy Iedul Fitri 1424 H
minal aidin wal faidzin - mohon maaf lahir dan batin

today is the last day of work and tomorrow we'll be off till december 2nd. we have cleaned up the operation desk and remove some stuff. all data is being back up to external storages. ordinary people might question it but you know the IT people, they always think three steps ahead.


i choose not to doing anything but browsing. what is the use of do some sort of thing and leave it in the middle of your work when you know you can only continue working on it 10 days after?


like my master said once before, soon i will rest. forever sleep. i'll take the chance to study my 4th exam paper which is has been delayed for so long. i've fixed my pc at home, well at least it is capable enough to open a word doc and playing mp3.


since i'm not be able to access internet from home, blog update will be hard to do. it might happen in random and it can only be happened if there's an opening warnet during the incoming holiday where most of people are mudik.


i'm gonna need some good books and VCDs to accompany me in case i get bored. PC games are almost impossible since the two years old king won't let the computer controlled by anyone else but him.


after all, have fun people. have a nice nice holiday. and happy Eidl Fitri

holiday fever

hu hu hu.. emang bawaannya gak bisa kerja kalo mo deket liburan gini. hawanya tuh udah mo berlibur aja.. liat aja pada males mikir semua khan yang pada kerja hari ini. nih buktinya! pada sibuk mikiran liburan n ngerayain lebaran bersama keluarga masing-masing. yihai... holiday will come.. and let's go celebrating... our big day of Eidl Fitri!

when i wrote the previous post i was a little bit regret for not taking a day-off coz of too tired *remember the traffic jam the night before i complained about*. but when it come to the time of going home yesterday, i realized that it's lucky for me that day. beside got some extra money *again* i had an order for cookies from one of my boss. it's not a big qtys order but enough for me making this statement: all 94 pcs cookies i've "impor-ed" from my mum are SOLD OUT! perfect!


updated Nov 20 '03 1:33 PM
i add one thing how i was so lucky though: when evrybody got trapped during the way home yesterday, fortunately i can arrived home at 6 pm. so lucky, thinking that its rains yesterday make whereever street at jakarta was so crowded. when most of my friend still at the streets, i was relaxing in my bed watching TV and enjoy my breakfasting. haha.. it think God was so fair. speaking about how's thing happened just one day before

okay everybody i believe we may start the countdown. only less than 24 hours left before holiday takes place. most of our users had reported to us their over time sched and been notified that certain support will be unavailable.


one good thing about mudik is it frees some space in jakarta. where on earth you can drive about 70 miles along Sudirman - Thamrin at rush hour except around lebaran?

my bus almost got an accident yesterday evening, fortunately the driver didn't lose his control and the brake did its job quite excellent. alhamdulillah we escaped and we had a rarely chance to see by our own eyes a flying corona 100 miles over speeding jumped and bumped and finally landed on the other side of the road, right in front of an incoming heavy brown fuso


well i call it luck. otherwise you guys might have a wounded or could be worse, a dead hawk today

am i brave enough to break the rules?

how's thing when 'just' 15 minutes a pouring rain trapped you in a small-crowded-not cool bus?? the results: about a hour and half 'just' to achieve Pasar Festival from Senen, and about one hour then to continue to pasar minggu. what a day!!

i need to buy a new shoes. perhaps by the end of the year? i love a black boot style like my current shoes just now. weeiii, Pakalolo still fits the most for me ^_^

kemaren akhirnya buka bersama se-direktorat di Pondok Laguna, pacenongan. mm.. mayan enak dan rame pula. sayangnya menunya gak terlalu banyak. ups.. no. menunya cukup banyak cuman sayang gak sebanding dengan jumlah orang yang ikut. istilahnya masih kurang puas deh makannya


brangkat dari kantor abis magrib, jadi sempat buka dulu. sampe sana, wah rameee bang-get. kayaknya pada manfaatin momen buat buka bersama sesama karyawan kantor. kelar ampir jam 8, terus gue nebeng salah satu mobil n dituruin di prapatan kuningan-gatsu.

one good thing about Eidl Fitri or other great public holiday like new year eve is vendors usually send us gift or parcel. dendeng juhi as a start and i'm expecting something bigger. my boss was hoping for a handphone whoaaaa... office day is only three days left, well, 3.5 actually and i bet most people are thinking about the incoming vacation instead of what they are doing right now.


just returned from the production line. puh, it was so damn hot there. now i'm losing my mood to continue working.



btw, this movie soundtrack really rocks me, the same thing that bon jovi's everyday did once ago. but i can't turn it on right now or my fellow room will complain about the high-ear cracking-noisy level.




how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core

hu hu hu.. finally i get my THR!!
it's almost 3 times higher from the 'other' one received on last friday.
good thing, at least it's already net value. so i don't have to know it's included tax already or not

thank you for helping me decide which one to buy. i bet i am much much smarter when to choose which computer should be bought.


wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become


(bring me to life)

i hope i don't have to work over time tomorrow. i hate working on saturday.

lebaran is just around the corner. the atmospher almost look likes 2-3 days aproaching that big day. i just received that big 'parcel'. yup, that minyak goreng, blue band, sirup, etc . they all packed in a big plastic handbag. just wonder how i get home with 'big' present like this?

one of my lists of movies i wanna see asap!

just signed the THR slip. TAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna kick that goverment's ass. greedy bitch. do they still lack of money to corrupt?

busy... busy... busy....

it is funny when we try to block a part of our memory from being arise again since when it does it only brings that pain back but somehow we welcome that feeling. feeling of lonely. feeling of hurt. though it doesn't hurt as much as it did before but our heart still skips a beat whenever it pays us a visit.


it is said that memory of the lost ones remain beautiful and stay in people's heart forever. though we choose to move on but a part of our heart is still left behind. and sometimes we still painting those days back, listening to our favourite songs or visit places that played a part of the story.


though time can change everything, it can never bring yesterday back. and we should move along the road of life, let all those things left behind, covered by the dying leaves. accept it and let it go. star is unreachable and so does a certain heart.

i wish i could go home and playing game along with this free internet connection . my boss informed that the THR has been transferred i should check it and make sure everything is ok.

we should be proud of indo for its naturally treasure, strategic geographic position, kindly people bla bla bla... bah. bullshit. take a look around and see what all those things have given to you. more over how good we can maintain them all without being greedy?


be proud of what you had achieved by your effort. not for a present from someone else.

i really wanna do this.
take a long long vacation with someone special *ehem*. how romantic!
anyway, its sunset just remind me of the beautiful beach of my hometown. can't hardly wait to be there with all the family celebrating iedul fitri

she will resign by the end of the month and choose to be a house-wife and i know i'm gonna lose a best friend of mine, the one who helped me stood and stayed beside me when the world seems to turn its face from me.


as i keep saying to my self; nothing lasts forever.

the engineering guy had asked us what's our plan regarding to lebaran. well, some servers will be shut down while some others remain on line. specific support will be unavailable and please do not contact to our cell phone -i add my self the last sentence- holiday is approaching and i can smell it, so pack your bag and take a breath. it's time to play.

it said just Rp 559000 cost. then when it come to receive the ticket, they cost becomes Rp 799.000.
oh God! can you serve customer much better?? though the demand sure so high, you just can't increase the price as you want!!

damn Indo traffic. it took more than it should be. the corrupt stupid local authority should be eliminated for being indifferent and money oriented

we really need to check on the C site for routine maintenance by tomorrow. beside THR is just around the corner and the on site app needs some adjustment. oh well what the heck. it makes no different at all. i still have to leave at 5:15 am.

as i return to my office some problems have been waiting inpatiently. the server has stopped, forces me to delete some files to free some space. after further investigation i found out what caused it. yet the slow traffic is still misteryous. still can't figure out why.


next, more virus threat forces us to stay alert and awake all the time. we are scheduled to check the C site by tomorrow but with this threat, it more likely we will be forced to stay at home, well i hope so.


btw about the diare i don't think that pempek is the primary suspect. its cuka was kind of sweet type. i think the pudding is indicent too. why else does a milky fruity pudding want to harm you anyway? i bet the chicken roaster is not our concern too. since all suspects have been eliminated, the only thing that left is bakmi japos.

the taxi come so early this morning.
it started at 10 minutes to 6 am then arrived at 6.15 am. just take 25 minutes along pasar minggu to senen. if only each days in Jakarta always like this, thanks God!!

can't hardly wait to see the movie!

a friend of mine just offered me to do some investment with other guys.
it's not so big amount value with rate 7% per month.
as first trial, it can be as join investment from 2 persons. ok, i'll take it!

news of today

the good news:
i get some extra money today. not bad. enough for paying the boardinghouse cost, i think


the bad news:
bulbul should be just lying now in his bed for some rest. he just broke his fasting today, coz of diare. and guess what? when i called him, he's watching tv and playing a while with his 2 years old cute nephew. what a naughty bird!!

fuhh.. i think i got a flu.
and they said it seems there will be additional working time today. uuhh.. sounds perfect, huh?

if
a beauty is what you wanna see
i'll give you a summer night under northern light


and if
a bridge to heaven is what you need
i'll paint rainbow in the sky

i'm burning. somebody please bring me . the heavier the better.

the room is 16 degree Celcius plus it's out there. make today becomes sooooo cold turn the mp3 on and everything is crunchy!